choosing between evils

there's this 'game' i used to play with my friends before. it's called the "would you rather.." game. we'd come up with hypothetically bad situations.. and ask each one another to "choose among two evils," so to speak. an example would be, "would you rather (A) have an arm amputated; or (B) lose your eyesight?" call us morbidly weird.. but playing that game sure led to highly animated debates and discussions on hurts, pains and life in general.

and now that i think about it.. we do make a lot of these choices in real life. ideally, of course, we would not even have to go through anything "evil" (read: uncomfortable, painful.. anything that we'd rather not experience). but life is far from perfect; hence, we often have to do things we really would prefer not to. because the alternative would be more painful. and refusing to make a choice would only increase the hurt.

anyway.. here's the song in my head for the moment. no, i'm not really sad right now. but i guess i can relate to the words. it is a very good example of our "would you rather.." situation..

LET THE PAIN REMAIN
(rachel alejandro)

love comes, love goes,
still a certain feeling never lets me be
somehow, i know 
that a part of me isn't changed since you've been gone
like a sturdy tree that's seen a thousand seasons
i could shed my leaves in winter 
to grow them back in spring 
to welcome life again
to welcome you

so goes my life
still believe in dreams of having you around
too bad, memories feed the mind and not the heart 
where i want you to be,
so i ask myself what you have left behind for me 
to go on each day to live as if i had you once again
what else is there that's real but all the pain that i feel

so let the pain remain forever in my heart
for every throb it brings
is one more moment spent with you,
i let the pain bring on the rain 
if that's the only way,
if there's no other way to be with you again