Monday, September 05, 2005

X-I

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wanttogiveuponhimcozatthemomentthatstheonlythingthatmakesmehappythatmakesmesaneandtogiveuphopingisalmostthesameasgivingup
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nowdearlordplsmakeallthispainstopcozicantbearitanymoreivetriedeverythingicouldthinkofandyetnothingseemstoworknothingicansayordocan
mendthewoundsimadeandnothingidocanbringbackwhatusedtobeonlyyouohlordcansoftenahardenedhurtingheartandonlyyoucanhealthewounds
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