dapithapon

i used to love sunsets when i was younger. i loved to watch the sun change from dark yellow to orange to red as it sets itself down slowly into the horizon. it fascinated me - how the sun could daily die.. only to live again the next morning. like a phoenix rising from its ashes.

but nowadays, i try to avoid the sunset. watching the light slowly fade gives me a deep feeling of sadness and loss. i don't really know why. maybe it's because i've experienced enough hurts and pains to make me afraid of watching the sun as it slowly loses its life. maybe i identify too much with its death.. its being swallowed up by the darkness. maybe. i don't know. the only thing i really know is that sunsets now have a different kind of beauty for me. not the gentle beauty that draws me closer. rather, the poignant, melancholy beauty that is at times terrible to behold.

but i have lived through more than a thousand sunsets. and perhaps i'll live through thousands more in my lifetime. the falling and rising sun. the cycle of death and life. it's probably one of those great mysteries i'll have to learn to live with. today, i turn my eyes from the sunset. but maybe tomorrow.. i'll learn to embrace it once again..

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i read this in one of the blogs i happened to visit today. i really like it :) it was written by a high school senior (an original composition - their section's song entry, i think). though the song was originally made for their graduation, i think the words speak about so much more. read on.. :)















DAPITHAPON
by isabel abeja

lumipas na, ang panahon
pagmasdan mo ang nga dahon,
ang nakaraang mga taon,
kay bilis na dumaan,
na parang isang kahapon.

at sa ngayo'y andito na tayo,
hinaharap ang dapithapon.
inaabangan ang bukang liwayway
sinasabayan ang pag-iba ng kulay.

ngunit habang tumatagal,
'ramdam ko ang iyong paglisan.
tayo'y haharap sa magka ibang daan,
subalit ang tanging masasabi ko lang

walang paalam,walang paalam
hindi ako lilisan
walang paalam,walang paalam
hindi kita iiwan

kay sarap balikan ang ating pinagsamahan
hindi ko mallimutan
ang ating mga alaala

ngunit habang tumatagal
'ramdam ko ang iyong paglisan
tayo'y haharap sa magkaibang daan
subalit ang tanging masasabi ko lang.

walang paalam,walang paalam
hindi ako lilisan
walang paalam,walang paalam
hindi kita iiwan

at sa ngayo'y andito na tayo
hinaharap ang dapit hapon
inaabangan ang bukang liwayway
sinasabayan ang pag-iba ng kulay

kung sakali mang,
hindi na tayo magkita..
sa puso ko..
mananatili ka...