tomorrow was supposed to have been a significant day. a special day. but in light of recent events, tomorrow will be just another one of those ordinary days. nothing significant about it.. nothing special.
i erased the special reminder on my calendar.. i changed the plans i originally made for the day. i bought no cards.. i did not look for token gifts. i probably will not be meeting anybody special tomorrow either.
i thought that i'd take it hard. i thought this would bring another onslaught of tears. i don't know about tomorrow.. but right now, i'm doing just fine. i'm not exactly jumping up and down for joy.. but neither am i crying myself to sleep. i've felt better.. but i'm not at my worst. in other words, i'm ok Ü
maybe it's because he's still here. not just in my heart.. but beside me as well. his shoulder is still mine to lean on.. his hands still wipe away the tears.. and his fingers, at times, still hold mine. he's no longer mine.. but he still gives of himself freely. hmm. like we said, "it's complicated." Ü
tomorrow was supposed to have been a significant day. but who knows.. perhaps tomorrow will still be special. and if it doesn't turn out quite the way i expect it to.. i know there will be other "tomorrows" waiting especially for me.. Ü
this post is dedicated to you, ney. have an especially happy day tomorrow on our non-occasion hehe Ü thanks a lot for making this day memorable Ü
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