NO REGRETS

"life is like a box of chocolates. you never know what you're gonna get." - forrest gump

that quote speaks to me right now. for the past week, my life's been like a roller coaster ride. lots of highs and lows... fast-paced... nerve-racking... crazy... heart-pounding... makes me wanna scream. it's weird but it seems like an entire lifetime has zipped by me in only a couple of days.

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in one of my recent posts, i ranted about one of the saddest experiences i've ever had in my life. fortunately, though, things are a-ok now between honey and me (hehehehe) so i'm a lot saner now than i was then (too bad i'm not as creative, though - negative emotions seem to bring out the poet in me hehehe).

our "cool-off" period (which thankfully lasted only a few days) was the first major heart-wrenching experience i've had in a loooong time. which doesn't really mean that i have not had other similarly memorable episodes in my life. it's just that those happened to me so long ago that i've forgotten how much pain i could endure...

come to think of it, once in a while it is enlightening to be reminded of the hurtful moments we've gone through in life. if there is one thing i've learned, *all* our experiences teach us something about ourselves, about other people, about relationships, about building character, about God... about LIFE.

i am no masochist. if i had my way, i would not want to experience all the pain, suffering and uncertainty that i have gone through these past days. BUT... i know that all these things happen for a reason. triumphant moments are there for encouragement. sweet, romantic moments help to bring you closer to one another. joyful moments bring happy memories. but relationships are deepened when you are able to go through tough, trying times. commitment and devotion are strengthened when they are tried and tested. and love is purified when it is no longer blind... when you can look at each other, see the faults and failures... and still accept one another unconditionally.
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in the midst of life's uncertainties... with all of the joys, tears, sorrows, dreams, hurts and fears mixed in with one another... there's always this prayer in my heart. that i may be able to live life the way i was meant to. and that i may be able to keep on saying that i have lived life with no regrets...