on birthdays and celebrations

today is choir director rannie's birthday (life begins at 40.. or so they say, haha). yesterday (jan04) was friend carolle's 18th (she's now officially a lady hahaha) and student charm's 16th (happy sweet!). hmm. birthdays and celebrations. do they always go hand in hand?

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i prepared my own packed lunch this morning (haven't done that in a looooong time) - dumplings, rice and rhum cake. not exactly standard fare, but i was looking forward to it. anyway, charm informed me that she turned sweet sixteen yesterday.. and she'd be treating her classmates and other friends to lunch today. haha. great. i picked a great day to bring my own lunch :p oh well.. i ended up thanking her for her treat.. and left my own food untouched hehehe.

friend carolle, on the other hand, seemed down in the dumps. i suppose she had a 'blue birthday' yesterday. hmm. wanted to give her a call just to ask how she's doing. but from the way she was responding to my texts when i greeted her on jan04 (1:00am), i guess i'd better wait for a better time :p [and no.. 1am is not an ungodly hour to msg her. she, like me, is a 'night' person] i'm not exactly sure if she "celebrated" on her birthday.. but i certainly hope her mood improved since the last time i talked to her.

now i don't know how cdr is spending his birthday today. maybe with friends and family. but certainly he'll be celebrating. hehe. this is one *very spoiled* guy. don't ask me to elaborate.. hahaha :p
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hmm. i'm suddenly reminded about my birthday last year. it wasn't eventful.. wasn't exactly what i'd call joyful or 'celebratory.' but it was special. oh, i didn't get my birthday wishes.. and i was heartbroken at the time. i had a lot of burdens and things that weighed heavily on my mind. and yet, it was a moment of grace.. where the Lord made me feel the love of so many people, in the midst of loneliness and a deep sense of loss.

what's so special about birthdays, anyway? why all the fuss and excitement? and is there really reason to celebrate? hmm. honestly.. i'd have to say yes. no matter how sad one may feel.. or how bad things seem to be. there's always a reason to celebrate and be thankful. this quote says it quite well, actually:

"The more you praise and celebrate your life,
the more there is in life to celebrate." -Oprah Winfrey

birthdays are special moments of grace. call me naive.. but i believe that on these days, God is more inclined to grant our prayers and petitions. hmm. or maybe on these special days, He gives us an additional sprinkling of wisdom.. to see His workings in our lives, and to marvel at His perfect plan for us :) so that in the end, we end up asking Him for what He intended to give us in the first place :)

yup.. there really are so many reasons to celebrate life, love and the Lord :) not just on birthdays.. but everyday :p

ramblings of an insomniac

what happens when a rain-loving, blog-addicted CSI (and House, MD) junkie perenially in need of a caffeine fix goes to bed at 11pm? nothing. 'coz sleep doesn't come. not until around 2.30am, that is. in spite of the early class hours the following day. and despite the fact that the body is extremely tired and the eyes are strained from all the hours spent in front of the PC :p

i tried counting sheep. unfortunately, my mind cannot conjure ovine images realistic enough for my taste. all i could come up with were cute "cartoony" sheep that unsuccessfully hop over wooden fences (complete with a backdrop of a blue sky and bright green grass). the picture looks disturbingly like a screensaver i'd like to see on a PC monitor (imagine the "tripping" sheep falling all over each other on one side of the fence) that i end up laughing inwardly and not getting any sleep at all.

one time, i took a friend's advice and drank milk before going to bed. unfortunately, my semi-lactose intolerant stomach didn't take kindly to that. hmm. bad move.

i also tried listening to music. the other night, i took my trusty mp3 player to bed with me.. put on the earphones.. and proceeded to listen to my favorite songs. i was so into the soundtrip that i found myself even more awake than before i tried to go to sleep. sheesh.

some say prayers help. hmm. yes, i guess they do. but most times, it's either (1) my prayer is too short 'coz i couldn't come up with anything to say; (2) my prayer is too long 'coz i have a lot of things on my mind; (3) my prayer doesn't make sense 'coz my brain's all muddled up; (4) my prayer is too intent 'coz i have one or two major 'issues' that i can't seem to get rid of. so what happens is (1) i don't get to sleep 'coz only a couple of short minutes passed - not enough to become sleepy; or (2) i don't get to sleep 'coz i was too focused on my prayer that i 'wake myself up' in the process; or (3) i don't get to sleep 'coz i spend all night trying to sort through my confused brain; or (4) i don't get to sleep 'coz my nose is all stuffy from crying over my 'issues.' bottom line: i don't get to sleep :p

so. counting sheep doesn't help. neither does milk. nor music. and prayer lulls me to sleep only when my brain allows it to. hmm. does anyone have advice to give this sleep-deprived ranter? :p

my kind of mystery

one of my favorite songs. used to sing it a while back. but now it has new meaning. i may not have that "love" right now.. but just the same, these words still ring true. love still is mysterious. wouldn't have it any other way..


LOVE MOVES IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS
(Julia Fordham)

Who'd have thought this is how the pieces fit?
You and I shouldn't even try making sense of it
I forgot how we ever came this far
I believe we had reasons but I don't know what they are
So blame it on my heart

Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising when love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery how you ever came to me
Which only proves love moves in mysterious ways

Heaven knows love is just a chance we take
We make plans but then love demands a leap of faith
So hold me close and never ever let me go
'Cause even though we think we know which way the river flows
That's not the way love goes, no

Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising when love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery how you ever came to me
Which only proves love moves in mysterious ways

Like the ticking of the clock, two hearts beat as one
But I'll never understand the ways it's done

Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising when love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery how you ever came to me
Which only proves love moves in mysterious ways
Love moves in mysterious ways

inspiring thought for today

it's the first working day of the year for me today. hmm. 2006 brings a lot of uncertainty and doubt. but i draw strength from this reflection (taken from streams in the desert), which i'm now sharing with all of you.. :)

"i [will] move along slowly at the pace of the droves before me and that of the children." (Gen 33:14)

what a beautiful picture of jacob's thoughtfulness for the cattle and the children! he would not allow them to be driven too hard for even one day. he would not lead them at a pace equal to what a strong man like esau could keep or expected them to keep, but only one as fast as they were able to endure. he knew exactly how far they could go in a day, and he made that his only consideration in planning their travel. he had taken the same wilderness journey years before and knew from personal experience its roughtness, heat and distance. and so he said, "i [will] move along slowly." "since you have never been this way before" (josh 3:4).

we "have never been this way before," but the Lord Jesus has. it is all untraveled and unknown ground to us, but He knows it all through personal experience. he knows the steep places that take our breath away, the rocky paths that make our feet ache, the hot and shadeless stretches that bring us to exhaustion, and the rushing rivers that we have to cross - Jesus has gone through it all before us. as john 4:6 shows, "Jseus, tired as he was from the journey, sat down." He was battered by every possible torrent, but all the floodwaters coming against Him never quenched His love. Jesus was made a perfect leader by the things He suffered. "He knows how we are formed, he remembers that we are dust" (ps 103:14) think of that when you are tempted to question the gentleness of His leading. He remembers all the time and will never make you take even one step beyond what your feet are able to endure. never mind if you think you are unable to take another step, for either He will strengthen you to make you able, or He will call a sudden halt, and you will not have to take it at all.

frances riley havergal

a major ego boost :p

i got this poem from friend hazel's LJ account.. and i just *loved* it :p
well, it's a new year.. and if she can claim this poem as her own, i suppose i can too :)
i'm not just gorgeous. i'm *phenomenal* hahahaha!
look out world.. here i come! :)


Phenomenal Woman
by Maya Angelou

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

start the year with a prayer

for our family, 2006 started, not with a bang, but with prayers. hehe.. our morning of 01 january was spent at the daughters of st. paul convent along FB harrison. our rivers community held its live tv mass there :)

before the mass started, the sisters invited us to join them in their morning prayers. admittedly, i wasn't used to praying the way they did.. with a prayer book and antiphons and canticles (i often couldn't figure out what page to turn to hahaha). but praying and singing along with them gave a sense of peace and serenity. it helped to calm the mind and spirit. hmm. i guess it was a good way to start the year :p

after the mass, some of us in the community went to have lunch at aristocrat roxas blvd. hehe. the food was good and (once again) i was stuffed!! *groan* i just know i'll gain back all those pounds i've lost.. :( time to diet, diet, diet!!! (hahaha.. just like friend eya said, this is probably going to be a year of dieting)

we then went to have our caffeine fix at starbucks. guess which starbucks branch we visited? we went to.. (drumroll please!!!).. MEGAMALL!!! hahahahahahahahahaha.. that was just so funny. i thought we've avoided that place for once.. but nooooo!! hehe.. it's not that i don't like megamall. but it's been a second home to me (literally!) for the past 10 years - what with us being there at least twice a week, every week since 1995. haha. owel.. guess it's hard to get that place out of our system now :p

by 4pm, my parents and i *finally* left megamall. we proceeded to manila doctors to visit an aunt who recently underwent brain surgery (she had a malignant cyst removed from her brain). it was surprising to see her recovering so quickly just after the operation. only 3 days after her ordeal, she was already speaking coherently, laughing, able to make full use of her arms and legs and looking generally healthy. i suppose this is one miraculous healing from the Lord.. and we are very fortunate to witness it first hand :)

so went the first day of this new year :p now, it's back to work for most (but for me, work starts tomorrow). slowly, the days will go back to their usual routine.. and whatever 'magic' of the holidays will wane. but that's ok. 2006 started out pretty well. i just hope and pray that the next 364 remaining days will turn out just like yesterday.. if not better :)

live life to the fullest!! happy 2006 to all :p

new-born

IT'S THE FIRST DAY OF 2006!!! :P

i found these "eggs" at friend oviler's LJ account and thought i'd adopt some myself :) well, it's a new year, after all.. and it would be nice to umm.. take care of something, albeit virtually hehe :p

they're supposed to hatch after a while.. and 'til then, i wouldn't know what my "pets" look like. hmmm. kinda like my life right now, i'd say. i know something great is ahead.. i just don't know what form it'll take.. hehe.

new hope and new life. here are my future pets to symbolize these :p happy new year, all!

LAST

december 31. the last day of 2005. tomorrow will be the start of a new year. a harbinger of what's in store for us in 2006. for most, the first day of the year symbolizes a new beginning. a chance to set things right.. to make new resolutions.. to look forward to better things. january 1st usually brings renewed hope.. and more opportunities for success and prosperity.

but for me, the last day of the year is just as important (if not *more* important) than the first. for while it is good to look to the future with hope and expectation, it is even more valuable to reflect on the blessings of the previous year. to learn from past mistakes. to reflect on the lessons of the year that was. and of course, to thank the Lord for His kindness, mercy and guidance for the whole of 2005.

so while i do look forward to the year ahead, i thank God for *everything* that's happened this 2005: the joys, the love and companionship, the friends and special people He sent my way.. and yes, even the trials, the heartaches, the mistakes and blunders that caused torrents of tears. i am grateful for all that He has allowed me to go through these past 365 days. invaluable lessons that continue to shape and mold me into the kind of person He wants me to be.

to all my friends and loved ones.. a great big THANKS to all of you Ü for your presence, for your company, for your words of wisdom, for your prayers and most of all, for your love, friendship and support. it is mostly for His gift of you that i thank the Lord Ü

A BLESSED AND HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! Ü

there and back again

we went to tagaytay again today. yep. after only 6 days (we last went to tagaytay on 24dec for ninang's bday/christmas celebration. see previous post), we were back there.. enjoying the cool weather and fresh air Ü this time, though, we went with the sy's (tita vix, tito willy, kat & armi). dropped by their resthouse for a couple of hours (i absolutely adooooore that place!) before heading off to lunch.

the main reason for our going to tagaytay today was to have lunch at "breakfast @ antonio's" (yep.. lunch at "breakfast" hehehe.. go figure). it's the bday of rizzie (doc manuel's eldest daughter) today and to celebrate, we were treated to lunch there.

the view from the restaurant was great. and there were lots of patrons too. we got there around 11.30am and the place was packed! the aroma of well-cooked meals permeated the entire restaurant. and mmmmmmmmm! the food was great. there was so much food! yumyum! there simply is no end to eating this holiday season. my oh my! i think i just regained all the weight i lost these past months, hehehe :p

anyway, tagaytay is my favorite place right now. i just want to keep coming back there. it's only a couple of minutes' drive from qc, after all. i love the cold weather and the absence of smoke-belching buses and jeeps. i love the variety of plants and flowers.. as well as the wonderful scenery. and of course, i love being able to spend time with family and friends :) pictures galore! hehehehe.. i'm really enjoying this vacation.

*sigh* wish i didn't have to go back to work next week.. :p

crossroads

"to be or not to be.. that is the question" so goes the famous shakespearian line. hmm. decisions, decisions. in life, we can never escape choices. every waking moment is full of decisions to make. from the trivial to the life-changing.. from the mundane to the totally earth-shaking ones. choices are all around us.

some choices are "easy" because there are no right or wrong decisions. like what color of shirt to wear, or what route to take going to work, or what brand of cereal to eat for breakfast. we are almost not aware of our decisions here because our choices in these matters do not affect our life in major ways. [note: a few people *do* have a difficult time choosing their cereal brands or their attire for the day - probably because of the sheer number of choices. but this is more an exception rather than the rule]

but not all "easy" decisions are trivial. sometimes, we are able to choose immediately simply because there are no other options available to us. a girl can easily fall for a guy if he's her only suitor. a person will probably take a so-so job offer if it's the only company willing to hire him. these "choices" are the ones that leave a semi-bitter taste in the mouth. because they are not actually *our* decisions to make.. rather, circumstances help to force our hand into taking the only available option.

and then there are *the* choices. the ones that lie solely in our hands. whose consequences may change the course of our lives. and the ones that require every ounce of our mind/heart/soul to make. built in every one of us is a sensor that recognizes these 'earth-shaking' decisions. and it causes us to stop and think. and think. and think.. before we even make a step towards choosing our path.

we consider a myriad factors. we think about morals - what is right and wrong. we determine what will make us comfortable or uneasy. we weigh our priorities.. and ask ourselves the tradeoffs we are willing to take. we try to see a bit farther into the future.. to consider possible consequences of our actions.. and in case of problems, possible solutions and ways of escape. bottom line: when making these decisions, our mind goes in hyperdrive.

everyone comes to crossroads in their life. a time of confusion, uncertainty and yes, sometimes fear and anxiety. but these are CROSSroads. and the best way to make that life-changing decision is to lay everything at the foot of His cross.. where hopefully, the mind, heart and spirit will see His Guiding Light.

tatty bears and hugs

i had a hard time sleeping last night ('early this morning' would be more accurate). maybe 'coz i was still looking for that special hug. hmm. but that's ok. i'm not sad or lonely.. and certainly not depressed (hahahahaha!). i'm just.. hmm.. hoping? :p though admittedly, i don't know exactly what i'm hoping for, hehehe.

anyway, thinking of hugs caused me to remember an old favorite - tatty bears :) yep. i'm a sucker for these cute, patched-up grey bears. and today (while i was silently praying that i'll soon find someone who will be able to give me that special hug), i found this blog ( ~*~Tatty Bear Loverz~*~) that featured a host of tatty bear pictures! :) hehehehe. it really brightened up my day :p

i may not get that special someone (or that special hug) anytime soon. but at least i have tatty bears to cheer me up. hey.. they may be 'tatty' and all.. but they really are special. and they make me feel warm and cozy inside :) i guess right now, that's just the thing i need.. :p

postscript: these tatty bears remind me of myself, too. just like them, i have lots of "patched up parts" and i'm not exactly perfect. i just hope that in spite of these imperfections, i'd still turn out to be lovable and (maybe) huggable :p

H-U-G

it's 1am and i can't sleep. haha. maybe it's the tall lite rhumba cream frap i drank tonight. or maybe it's coz of this journal article thing (i've already completed my "research" for the related lit - i've been browsing through them for the past couple of hours). or perhaps i just need to finish watching "forensic files" on the crime & suspense channel. then again, maybe i'm just a regular insomniac hehehe :p

anyway. there's one thing i want right now. nothing really special. and certainly not something that can be bought. it isn't costly.. but it's priceless. and at the moment, it's one thing that i just couldn't have. that one thing is.. A HUG.

yep. i need someone to hug right now. no, i'm not sad. in fact, i am quite happy with myself. i enjoy myself with friends and family. i like the activities that keep me busy (except this journal thing). i look forward to going out with my mom (and dad, hopefully) later or on thursday. i'm basically doing great. but i need to embrace somebody right now. not for comfort or a shoulder to cry on.. but just to have a good, warm hug.

it's been a long time since i got a hug from anyone other than my parents. i miss the feeling of a warm, spontaneous embrace. *sigh* maybe i'll get my wish sometime soon.. Ü

time warp

it's december 27, and for most, this means back to work at the office! luckily, i am not most people, hehe. i'm still on christmas break. i don't go back to school until january 03 hehe. *sigh* i just love this job incentive, hehehe.

time behaves differently during the holiday season. come december, you'll see people move as if in fast forward. time zips by.. and you feel as if the days are only 6 hours long. this phenomenon continues 'til only a day or two away from christmas. it is then that you get a break from the hassle and stress of work and time stops (well, sort of.. let's just say it slows down 'til it's almost stopped).. and you have enough time for those last-minute shopping, wrapping, cooking or whatever it is you've left undone.

but now, christmas is over.. and time starts moving once again. so after the festivities, the party games, the binging and the gift-giving.. we find ourselves suddenly back to the usual routine. i don't mean just going back to work. i'm referring, instead, to the ordinary [read: unexciting, uneventful, NOT special.. "blah"] activities we do on regular days - cleaning house, doing chores, watching ho-hum programs on tv, attending to unfinished paperwork, etc.

starting today, there will be no text greetings of "merry christmas".. no visiting "inaanaks".. no ang pao from "ninongs" and "ninangs." there will be fewer kids a-carolling.. less holiday smiles from people.. and perhaps even a decrease in kindness, consideration and generosity from strangers. hmm. i guess this sounds cynical.. even by my standards, hehe. maybe the "holiday spirit" is wearing off on me too fast, too soon :p

but hey.. this is the "transition week" for most. come saturday/sunday, we celebrate new year! hehehe.. so i guess for the meantime, we all are given a blessed time to adjust. from one major holiday.. to ordinariness.. to another major holiday.. to the usual routine.. and hopefully, normalcy Ü hahaha. i looooove this season.. :p

the day after

ok.. so christmas came and went so quickly, i almost had no time to breathe. but that's fine with me.. 'coz i had a blast this christmas Ü yes, i had a splitting headache last night (mostly because i forgot to eat dinner.. drank vodka.. and stayed outside where it was 'mahamog' hehehe), but it was quickly remedied with a tall starbucks green tea frap and a belated dinner :p




time spent with the family.. with friends and loved ones.. is always time well-spent Ü so from our family to yours.. a very blessed Christmas and a prosperous New Year this coming 2006 Ü

blessed christmas

"For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace." Isa 9:6

A BLESSED CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE! :)

brrrr...

the other day, a friend of mine gave a comment, saying "pa'no ba 'yan.. e di malamig pala ang pasko mo..?" and without thinking, i said, "oo nga e. malamig na nga ang panahon, malamig pa ang pasko.." hmm. well, that was last tuesday. today's another day.. :p

my parents and i (along with our househelp, 'genevieve') went to tagaytay today. it's my (favorite) ninang's birthday so we went over to their vacation house to celebrate. and since christmas is just a day away, naturally, it was a birthday/christmas celebration Ü

this picture was taken only a couple of minutes after we arrived at the venue. hehehe. the tagaytay air was sooooo cold! there was absolutely no need for an electric fan in the house. the breeze felt colder than the air circulating from an a/c unit. good thing i had my trusty jacket hehehe :p


and since this was a birthday/christmas celebration, naturally we had food - lots of it!! to be perfectly honest though, i wasn't able to eat much. there was simply too much food that just looking at the table made me full, hehehe. oh.. and the freezing cold didn't help my appetite much, either. brrrr..

[note: i discovered something new today. i loooove the lemon green tea of 'earth & sky' Ü you should try it. yummy!!]



and these, of course, are my favorite cousins (too bad 'fave cuz' almi belongs to my mother's side of the family - kumpleto na sana kami, hehehe). it's fun hanging out with them 'coz i get to have instant playmates, hehehe. we played monopoly (dom's style) and scrabble (my all-time fave game hahaha) and badminton (ok, so we weren't really good at it. so what?! :p). quality time with family. aahhh. doesn't get much better than this.. Ü

anyway, going back to what i said last tuesday. looks like i'd have to eat my words :p well, it's *partly* true - malamig ang pasko ko ngayon. but only because the weather is soooo cold :p deep inside, though, my christmas is warm.. very Ü 'coz i have so many blessings to be grateful for.. so many reasons to smile (see my previous blogposts). i have my family, my friends, my loved ones. i have people who are special and dear to me.. who cheer me up and bring color to my days Ü

i was never very fond of having my picture taken. but recently, i noticed that i enjoy posing for the camera, hehe. no, i don't exactly hog the limelight (yet!).. but i do like viewing my latest pictures. *contented sigh* i guess it's because when i look at myself now, i see a different me - one with a genuine smile.. one with more twinkle in the eyes. hmm. guess this is how it is when you're *really* happy Ü

my christmas is pink.. and red.. and green.. and yellow.. and orange.. hehe. in short, my christmas is rainbow-colored! Ü may *your* christmas be filled with blessings of joy, peace, hope and love.. and may the warmth of God's presence be with you not just this season, but always Ü

a joyous and blessed christmas to everyone! Ü *hugs and kisses!*

special request #2 : think of me

i was browsing through cweesteen's friendster profile and found these lyrics posted there. i can't believe i never thought of including this song in my blogposts. this is *my* song.. and i can relate with each line.. each word.
it's so beautifully sad (or is it sadly beautiful?) that i love it.
no need to mention who i'm dedicating this song to..


Think of Me
(Phantom of the Opera)

Think of me,
think of me fondly when we've said goodbye.
Remember me ev'ry so often -
promise me you'll try.

On that day, that not so distant day
when you are far-away and free,
if you ever find a moment, spare a thought for me.

And though it's clear, though it was always clear
that this was never meant to be
if you happen to remember,
stop and think of me.

Think of August when the trees were green.
Don't think about the way things might have been.

Think of me, think of me waking silent and resigned.
Imagine me trying too hard to put you from my mind.
Think of me - please say you'll think of me
whatever else you choose to do;
there will never be a day when I won't think of you.

Flowers fade, the fruits of summer fade.
They have their season, so do we -
but please promise me
that sometimes you will think..
of me

i wish..!

one of the reasons why i love staying home is that i get to watch all the cartoons i want Ü yup, you read it right. i loooooove cartoons! hehehe. i especially like nicktoons such as rugrats, spongebob squarepants, as told by ginger, hey arnold, jimmy neutron and of course my all-time favorite, the fairly odd parents :p

the fairly odd parents are composed of fairies cosmo & wanda. they are timmy turner's fairy godparents. they grant his every wish - although most of the time, timmy's wishes become the bases of his misadventures and fiascos hehe. it's fun to watch the show. sometimes i catch myself wishing i actually had such fairy godparents.. hahaha.

no really. i could use one right now. though if i'd have a fairy godparent like cosmo, i'd *seriously* have to think twice, hehehehe.

LORRIES

lor·ry n. pl. lor·ries Chiefly British. A motor truck. A large truck designed to carry heavy loads; usually without sides.

lorries never fascinated me.. not until today, that is :p hehe. take a look at the pictures below. you'll know why i find lorries interesting.. :D (ok, so there's actually another reason why 'lorries' interest me. but that's for me to know and for you to *try* to find out hahahahaha)

eternity

"what else could i give to you? my heart, you already have.. along with the rest of me. what else is left that isn't yours?

if i could give you forever, i'd serve it up to you in a silver platter. if i could freeze the moments for us to keep reliving, you know i would. if it would bridge the distance between us, i'd travel a hundred miles and more. and if i could spend the whole of eternity with you, i'd definitely start now.

you know that i would keep on giving.. until there is absolutely nothing left to give. and even if i had a thousand lifetimes, know this: i'd gladly offer each of these, just to be with you.. for all eternity."

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hmm. ok, so the above lines are not exactly related to christmas. however, i found them interesting, hehehe.. :p reminds me of a time when i was so deeply in love. well, these are 'memorable' words. who knows, maybe these can still apply to me someday hehehe :p

eternity. such a short word, but so full of meaning. *sigh* perhaps one day i'll begin to understand its meaning once again..