*smiles*

LIKE A LOVER
Sergio Mendes

Like a lover, the morning sun
Slowly rises and kisses you awake
Your smile is soft and fuzzy
As you let it play upon your face
Oh, how I dream
I might be like the morning sun to you

Like a lover, the river wind
Sighs and ripples its fingers through your hair
Upon your cheek it lingers
Never having known a sweeter place
Oh, how I dream
I might be like the river wind to you

How I envy a cup that knows your lips
Let it be me, my love
And a table that feels your fingertips
Let it be me, let me be your love
Bring an end to the endless days and nights
Without you

Like a lover, the velvet moon
Shares your pillow and watches while you sleep
Its light arrives on tiptoe
Gently taking you in its embrace
Oh, how I dream
I might be like the velvet moon to you

Oh, how I dream
I might be like the river wind to you

How I envy a cup that knows your lips
Let it be me, my love
And a table that feels your fingertips
Let it be me, let me be your love
Bring an end to the endless days and nights
Without you

Like a lover, the velvet moon
Shares your pillow and watches while you sleep
Its light arrives on tiptoe
Gently taking you in its embrace
Oh, how I dream
I might be like the velvet moon to you
I might be like the velvet moon to you
I might be like the velvet moon to you

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last song i heard playing on my zen last night. a welcome case of LSS hahaha. anyway, i woke up happy today. first time that's happened in several weeks. hmmm. i'm trying to make the most out of these happy moments. love 'em while they last, right? :p

i am thinking of writing a post about kids (i've been swamped with toddlers these past days!) but i haven't gotten around to doing that yet 'coz i'm kinda busy with papers to check. oh well. it'll come. pretty soon.. :)

something borrowed

Fare thee well, my own true love
Farewell for awhile...
I'm going away
But I'll be back
For I go ten thousand miles

Ten thousand miles, my own true love
Ten thousand miles or more
Though rocks may melt
And the seas may burn
If I should not return...

Oh don't you see that lonesome girl
Sitting on an Ivy tree
She's weeping for
Her own true love
As I shall weep for mine.

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got this from friend jamie ruth's blog. i liked the way she writes. i would've browsed through a lot more of her writing (and borrowed more too haha) if only i had more time right now :p

10,000 miles. certainly feels that way to me. i'm just here.. and so is he.. but the distance is astronomical. *sigh*

what kind of angel..?

saw this picture while surfing the net.. and i just *had* to post it. cool, huh?

didn't go to choir prax last night. had tons of stuff to do for school. actually, i'm on my way to upis right now. we have this seminar/workshop thingy.. and i think it's gonna be whole day. *sigh* great. might not even be able to attend tonight's prayer meeting.

it's not so bad, though. really. somehow, i just am not in the right frame of mind lately. maybe that's why this picture appeals to me in quite a different way..

all straight things must bend

BEGIN

by Ben Lee

I'm walking down broadway
Each foot step is a new love letter
I'm trying to make eye contact
With each and every stranger that I pass
Thinking about the city
It's living proof people need to be together
I'm thinking about how I just want to open up
And give and give and give
And it's ok for you to care
Cause I can feel you in the air
And while you wonder "how's this gonna end?"
I only want it to begin

I'm thinking about desire
I've had to learn how to sin successfully
I'm thinking about bliss
And bliss is all dressed up
And there's no one to dance with
Remembering her smile and the nuclear bomb
And the reasons I loved her
Walking through Central Park
I'm in a foriegn country and I'm waiting for a sign
That it's ok for you to care
Cause I'm not going anywhere
And while you wonder if you should let me in
I only want it to begin

I'm still singing
Twisting humilities, breaking arrangements
Thinking about my heart
I guess you've heard, sometimes it's heavy
But I just keep moving
When I hit a wall, I look up at the sky
I'm thinking about my makeup
In spite of all this I know she won't give up on me
And its ok for you to care
Cause I can taste you everywhere
While it's true
All straight things must bend
I only want it to begin

I only want it to begin
I only want it to begin
I only want it to begin

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i have soulmate to thank for this songpost. it came just in time.

i'm keeping quiet. i guess you can say i'm in hiding right now.

but it's good to know that in spite of that fact.. she knows.

thanx for the song.

i'm an Angel >:)

guess this is somewhat related to my previous post, wahahahaha >:)

this has been a very dizzying day. hmm. i guess that's coz i barely had any time to rest this weekend.

during my entire stay at school, i could literally feel my mind floating. not in a good way, mind you. i had such a difficult time concentrating on the stuff i was supposed to do. *sigh* good thing i was still able to teach and review the kids for their upcoming exam on thursday.

i bet soulmate would like to grab this picture as well, bwahaha.

O or V

the LSS of the class of st. philip was just concluded today. *sigh* i think, among the LSSes i've served in, i was most tired this time. probably because we were busy with the sale of our christmas CDs. or maybe because i only recently recovered from my coughing fits. then again, it's probably because i have lots of stuff to attend to (periodic exams na!!! waaaah!!). or perhaps it's just my mood. i dunno. but i am extremely DRAINED!!!

anyway, i have a poem in my mind that's been waiting to come out since last week. unfortunately, i don't have the energy to let it out. hmmm. i'll just edit this post when i do find the time and energy to write them lines down :p for now, i'll let the picture speak for itself..

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disguise

everyone says i wear a halo
ha! little do they know
behind these innocent-looking eyes
there is a devil in disguise

no long horns nor flashing tail to see
you won't associate darkness with me
but then again, behind each smile
often there's something intended to beguile

they say i'm an angel - sweet.. polite..
funny.. charming.. and they'd be right
except that they're not aware
of all the things in me of which they should beware

reader of minds.. caller of rain..
invisible watcher.. lover of pain..
keeper of secrets and things untold..
with a meek exterior that hides what is bold

so watch out for me lest i catch you off guard
and let my words and actions sting you hard
no, i'm not pure evil.. but i'm the worst of my kind:
an angel with a halo.. and a tail from behind

it's christmas!!!

OUR CHRISTMAS ALBUM IS FINALLY OUT!!! :)

hahaha.. we're all quite proud of it. not that we're biased (ok, fine.. maybe we are.. but only *a little bit* hehe); but it's a really great album. we're happy with it - from the songs to the cover art to our pictures to the 'dedication' inside.. hehe. and i hope our friends will be happy when they get their own copies, too :p

the labor of love (not to mention sweat and pockets, hehehe) sure paid off! *sigh* christmas in october.. this is great :p

lemiz' heroine

A Little Fall of Rain

Eponine
Don't you fret, M'sieur Marius
I don't feel any pain
A little fall of rain can hardly hurt me now
You're here, that's all I need to know
And you will keep me safe
And you will keep me close
And rain will make the flowers grow

Marius
But you will live, 'Ponine - dear God above,
If I could heal your wounds with words of love

Eponine
Just hold me now, and let it be
Shelter me, comfort me

Marius
You would live a hundred years
If I could show you how
I won't desert you now...

Eponine
The rain can't hurt me now
This rain will wash away what's past
And you will keep me safe
And you will keep me close
I'll sleep in your embrace at last

The rain that brings you here is Heaven-blessed!
The skies begin to clear and I'm at rest
A breath away from where you are
I've come home from so far

Eponine & Marius
So don't you fret, M'sieur Marius
(Hush-a-bye, dear Eponine)
I don't feel any pain
(You won't feel any pain)
A little fall of rain can hardly hurt me now
(A little fall of rain can hardly hurt you now)
I'm here..
That's all I need to know
And you will keep me safe
(I'll stay with you 'til you are sleeping..)
And you will keep me close
And rain
(And rain)
Will make the flowers..
(Will make the flowers.. grow)

She dies. Marius kisses her, then lays her on the ground

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les miserables. i love the book. i love the musical even more. lots of memories are connected to lemiz (practically the only fond memories i have of highschool involved our performing "one day more" and "on my own" for our broadway presentation in third year). it's my all-time favorite book/musical.. and i can know most of the songs from lemiz by heart.

most people i know love the cosette-marius love angle. hmmm. not me. i don't even like cosette. nor marius, for that matter. the one character i really admire in lemiz is eponine. yup. the girl who was so hopelessly in love with marius (goodness knows what the heck she saw in him!!). the girl whose love for her guy literally killed her. the girl whose death made a man out of a coward. eponine.. the tragic heroine.

and while most would probably say their favorite song from lemiz is "on my own".. i'd have to say that *this* is mine. "a little fall of rain" is just so sad.. yet so beautiful. it's so touching that even though i don't like marius.. i learned to appreciate him afterwards, haha.

the song just speaks volumes.

do you believe in destiny?

Written in the Stars
Leanne Rimes

I am here to tell you we can never meet again
Simple really, isn't it? A word or two and then
A lifetime of not knowing where or how or why or when
You think of me or speak of me or wonder what befell
The someone you once loved so long ago, so well

Never wonder what I'll feel as living shuffles by
You don't have to ask me and I need not reply
Every moment of my life from now until I die
I will think or dream of you and fail to understand
How a perfect love can be confounded out of hand

Is it written in the stars?
Are we paying for some crime?
Is that all that we are good for
Just a stretch of mortal time?
Is this god's experiment
In which we have no say?
In which we're given paradise
But only for a day

Nothing can be altered, there is nothing to decide
No escape, no change of heart, nor any place to hide
You are all I'll ever want but this I am denied
Sometimes in my darkest thoughts I wish I'd never learned
What is to be in love and have that love returned

Is it written in the stars?
Are we paying for some crime?
Is that all that we are good for
Just a stretch of mortal time?
Is this god's experiment
In which we have no say?
In which we're given paradise
But only for a day

Is this god's experiment
In which we have no say?
In which we're given paradise
But only for a day

this song came from friend rizi - my fellow "smurfette" hahahaha.
thanx for the song post. definitely fits the blue mood.. :p

so who killed this angel?

I'd Die Without You
PM Dawn

Is it my turn to wish you were lying here.
I tend to dream you when I'm not sleeping.
Is it my turn to fictionalize my world.
Or even imagine your emotions. Tell myself anything...
Is it my turn to hold you by your hands.
Tell you I love you and you not hear me...
Is it my turn to totally understand.
To watch you walk out of my life and not do a damn thing...


If I have to give away
The feeling that I feel
If I have to sacrifice
Oh, whatever babe, whatever baby.
If I have to take apart
All that I am
Is there anything that I would not do
since I'd die without you
Yeah baby
since I'd die without you
since I'd die without you

Oh, I apologize for all the things I've done
But now I'm underwater and I'm drowning
Is it my turn to be the one to cry
Isn't it amazing how some things completely turn around
So take every little piece of my heart
Yeah, take every little piece of my soul
Yeah, take every little piece of my mind
'Cause if you're gone... inside
I'd die without you

give me visine

i'm back to being "blue girl" today.. though not really because i'm sad. i'm just not in the mood for *anything* :( hmmm. guess my cough still has a lot to do with the "blah" mood *sigh*

anyway, i got quite a shock when i looked at myself in the mirror earlier today. the eyes really are the windows to the soul. 'coz when i saw my reflection, i saw really tired, puffy-looking eyes. nope, i didn't cry (haven't done that in a loooong time).. but my eyes were *really* tired-looking :( no twinkle.. no spark. not even a small gleam. sheesh.

i decided to stay home and not go to choir practice today. oh heck, i know i'm going to miss being there. but i figure it would do me a lot more good to just stay home and rest. i haven't had time to really relax these past days. so i'm taking this time to just.. be :p

besides, i don't want to go out looking this way. darnit. no amount of makeup is gonna cover up my tired-looking eyes. might as well sleep this one off..

math time

1. In order to encourage his son to work hard in solving problems, a father agreed to pay him P8 for every correctly solved but will fine him P5 for every incorrect solution. At the end of 26 problems, neither owed anything to the other. How many problems did the boy do correctly?

2. On his birthday, Francis was 14 years old and his father was 41. Francis noticed that his age was the reverse of his father’s age. How many years will pass before their ages are again reversals of one another?

3. An ant is at the bottom of an iron pole which is 5 meters high. Each day, the ant climbs up 1 meter and each night it slides back ½ m. How long will it take the ant to climb to the top of the pole?

4. In numbering the pages of a book 408 digits were used. How many pages has the book?'

5. What is the smallest positive number that will give remainders of 7 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 when divided by 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3 respectively?

6. From a group of boys and girls, 15 girls leave, and two boys remain for each girl who stays. From this group, 45 boys leave and 5 girls remain for each boy who stays. How many girls were in the original group?

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don't you just loooooove math? hahahaha. thanx, arianne, for giving me these problems :)

the secret of a happy heart

today is a happy day. after the mass, i was able to go malling with soulmate heidi (who, apparently, may be a distant relative of mine. wahahaha! freaky having a 'soulmate' for a distant cousin of sorts. sheesh!) and edwin. we went around the exhibit at megatrade hall 1 and i was able to buy some bags and other stuff. friend france bought me a really nice bag as a belated bday present (which actually came from her and mama nona :p).

dad had a belated bday celebration today, too. we had lunch at cabalen megamall. smh and edwin came along, too :) we sat together with cousin almi and partook of the buffet food. when we got really stuffed with all the eats, the four of us walked around (mostly just window shopping) to "exercise" and try to wake ourselves up, hehe.

hmm. i don't know what the secret is.. but i do know that my heart is smiling today :)
i'm just cherishing the feeling while it lasts :p nuninuninuninu.. wahahaha..

blue stars

"where do you go when you're lonely? where do you go when you're blue? where do you go when you're lonely, i'll follow you.. when the stars go blue"

haha.. major LSS! this song's been playing on my zen for the past few hours already. and i'm not feeling blue. not at all. thanx wye. i'll follow you to wherever.. even when stars are pink :p

cluck cluck

i'm home sick today :( i wasn't able to observe the morning class at elem.. and i don't think i'd be able to observe my student teacher's class later after lunch either. great. and to think that i had a lot of stuff i was supposed to do today :(

it's my dad's bday right now. it's just such a bummer that (1) i'm not able to help him out much here at home; (2) he has to take care of me; (3) we might not be able to have that joint bday dinner celebration tonight :( aww shucks

they say chicken soup does wonders, not just for the soul, but for colds and cough. well. i need my chicken soup remedy asap. coz it's really ironic how, just when i'm raring to work and accomplish something, this happens. *sigh*

treasure hunt

i had a really great time when my dad prepared a treasure hunt for me on my birthday.. so i'm returning the favor :p haha, actually this is a regular thing for us.. especially when birthdays come. well, it's my dad's special day tomorrow so i prepared a little surprise for him.

i hope he gets THIS clue. it's *really* easy, hahahaha :p

it's not me.. and it's not you

Your Mistake
Sister Hazel

I’m not right, I’m not fine
I wanna be rain that tastes like wine
I wanna be good, I wanna be great
I wanna be everything
Except for your mistake

Send me inside your mind
I wanna know what you’re thinking
This time I’ll try
To be the one you always thought you knew
It’s true, I’m blue
And without you

I’m not right, I’m not fine
I wanna be rain that tastes like wine
I wanna be good, I wanna be great
I wanna be everything
Except for your mistake

Let me into your view
I wanna know how you see this thing
That’s us
I must keep managing my madness over you
It’s true, I’m blue
And without you

I’m not right, I’m not fine
I wanna be rain that tastes like wine
I wanna be good, I wanna be great
I wanna be everything
Except for your mistake

And I don’t want your sympathy
Just understanding
Would we be better off if I just took some time
To try to understand you?

I’m not right, I’m not fine
I wanna be rain that tastes like wine
I wanna be good, I wanna be great
I wanna be everything
Except for your mistake

I’m not right, I’m not fine
I wanna be rain that tastes like wine
I wanna be seen, I wanna get clean
I wanna just fall out of in between
I’m not right, and I’m not right
I don’t want to be your mistake

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chasing rainbows II

rainbows. full of color. pretty. cheerful. sweet. nice. stuff little girls love.

well. i have another take on rainbows. they're untouchable. they're way up there in the clouds. always out of your grasp. they are said to have a "pot of gold" - but so far, only fictitious leprechauns ever gained anything from them. rainbows brighten up a gloomy day; but only for a moment. they paint the sky with bright colors.. then suddenly fade back into oblivion. rainbows are both real and unreal. totally out of reach. kinda like happiness.

so what's the point of gazing up at that rainbow? why bother reaching for something that you obviously couldn't have? why believe in something that's not going to last forever? what's the point of basking in the colorful display when you know your skies will be bleaker once it's gone?

i don't know. there's no logic in it. but it doesn't matter. after the deluge, i defiantly look up at the sky and search for my rainbow. i'm determined to find it.. and claim my pot of gold (woe to the leprechaun that gets in my way, haha) what i'll do with it once i have it, i'm not sure. all i know is that i'm chasing my rainbow. and i sure as hell am going to enjoy doing it.

hmm..?

i think i still have a "milenyo" hangover. it sure felt weird going back to school today. it certainly doesn't feel like a monday. i thought classes would still be suspended (since most of UP still doesn't have any power). (un)fortunately, upis has its electricity back on.. so classes resumed today *sniff* *sniff*

anyway, when i got to my desk at school, i found this note.. along with two uhmm.. "wild flowers" bwahahahaha :p that really made me smile. heck, i know i wished for flowers for my birthday.. but all i seemed to get were "semi" flowers - a flowery mms from sanny and weeds from my "secret admirer" bwahaha :p oh well. it's the thought that counts, i guess. and the gestures are very much appreciated. so thanx, you guys.. :p

i just got home from school right now. i have this huge headache (probably from my colds) and my throat's kinda scratchy. i was supposed to rest as soon as i got home.. but i just couldn't resist tapping some lines on the keyboard, hahaha. oh.. and i backed up my phonebook, too. looks like i'll have to have my celphone reformatted again. darnit. the n71 software really sucks. i wish they'd come out with an upgrade soon. i can't keep going back to brightpoint to have my phone fixed every month.

hmm. it's now october.. and like i mentioned in my previous post, my happiness seems to have waned with the passing of september. hmm. maybe the storm winds blew it away, haha. anyway, i took this pic last saturday (30 sept) in heidi's car. it was a sort of pink day for me.. although even then, i wasn't feeling so sunny anymore. guess you can see it in the eyes. nevertheless, i'm glad i took a picture. maybe the next ones won't look as happy anymore.

but that's a big *maybe*.. 'coz i'm trying out something right now. i have a feeling it's going to work.. but i don't wanna jinx it, so i'm keeping quiet, hehehe. all i can say is.."secret admirer" played a really big part in this thing i'm trying out today. so thanx, friend.. whoever you are. and if you're reading this.. i owe you :p

chasing rainbows

A Million Miles Away
Joey Albert

I'd love to make you mine
'Cause it's the only way to hold you
In my wild imagination
Still don't know how
To grab a chance and spend some time
In just a simple conversation

Just give it a try
Though I'm like chasing rainbows in the sky
I wanna hold you in my dreams
And make believe that it's true
Although I know, I know that it's impossible to do
'Cause you're a star
People love you as you are
You're a million miles away from me

Wish that you were here
'Cause it's illusions every time you're close to me
And sing my love songs
And it's the only way
I could tell the whole world I love you
Although you're a million miles away

Just give it a try
Though I'm like chasing rainbows in the sky
I wanna hold you in my dreams
And make believe that it's true
Although I know, I know that it's impossible to do
'Cause you're a star
You're a star
You're a star
Million miles away from me...

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somehow i knew this would happen. somehow i knew it would end with september. hmm. it's just as well. it felt weird anyway. i wasn't used to it. though really.. i thought i could get used to it. i thought i'd actually enjoy being that way. but apparently, things don't always work out the way we think they would.

so i'm back to square one..? hmm. maybe not. i don't know. but if my recent rainwish is any indication.. things just might be looking up..