begging

the homily for today was so appropriate. it's been such a long time since i perked up while listening to the gospel and the priest's take on it.

i never realized how poor i really was. until this morning.. :(

it doesn't feel good to hear the words.. and to know what they mean. after this morning's mass, i really needed some space.. some time off. thank god for soulmate and her wacky bf for the cheer-upper they didn't even know they provided.

sucks that such a simple thing could prove to be so damned elusive.

and now here we go again..

damn. damn. damn.

i must have short-term memory loss of the most severe kind.. :(
i wish you understood what the priest said this morning. damn you, you insensitive jerk..