vertigo

another summer "vacation" is coming to an end. normally, i'd be extremely bummed about that. right now, though, i don't mind it so much. not because i'm excited to go back to work (hahahahahahaha... yeah, right!). it's just that this is probably the worst summer i've ever had.

why, you ask? quite frankly, i don't know. there's just this overwhelming sense of everything zipping by at breakneck speed.. even though you're just standing still. it's as if day in, day out, everything's the same.. but totally unfamiliar. same faces and names.. but somehow, entirely different people. there's a dizzying and disorienting confusion that you just can't shake off - although you try to stand still and close your eyes to block out the madness. you take a stab at doing everything you're supposed to do.. and everything spirals out of control. vertigo.

doctors usually give cinnarizine to combat vertigo. how i wish there were a similar pill for handling life's chaos.