"Time has a way of passing by,
until I don't remember why, or how, to hurt for you..."
until I don't remember why, or how, to hurt for you..."
i 'stole' this quote from cousin dee's gmail stat message. i guess i really am feeling emo right now. sorry. i can't help it. i *am* sad. maybe this has something do with what i found out about an alien friend of mine (actually, er.. two alien friends of mine.. *sigh*) the news just came at one of the worst possible moments. oh well.. :'(
in her prayer/worship last night, sis nona encouraged us to have a good cry. she said that tears are healing.. and that it's okay to cry.. that it helps to release all the pent-up hurts and pains. especially when it's done in front of god.. when it's done as a sacrifice of praise.
and i believed what she said. even before she said those words i already knew i wanted to cry. i wanted to cry over the person i used to be.. the one who's gone missing and who probably doesn't exist anymore. i desperately wanted to believe that she's still alive.. or that pretty soon she'll show up again - stronger and more beautiful than what she used to be. but i just can't see it. i don't see that happening anytime soon. maybe not ever..
i wanted to cry. i needed to cry. but i didn't. i couldn't. i won't allow myself to do so. not there. not then. hmm. coward. hahaha.
time heals. *sigh* that's my only hope..
i wish you knew just how much this really hurts..
in her prayer/worship last night, sis nona encouraged us to have a good cry. she said that tears are healing.. and that it's okay to cry.. that it helps to release all the pent-up hurts and pains. especially when it's done in front of god.. when it's done as a sacrifice of praise.
and i believed what she said. even before she said those words i already knew i wanted to cry. i wanted to cry over the person i used to be.. the one who's gone missing and who probably doesn't exist anymore. i desperately wanted to believe that she's still alive.. or that pretty soon she'll show up again - stronger and more beautiful than what she used to be. but i just can't see it. i don't see that happening anytime soon. maybe not ever..
i wanted to cry. i needed to cry. but i didn't. i couldn't. i won't allow myself to do so. not there. not then. hmm. coward. hahaha.
time heals. *sigh* that's my only hope..
i wish you knew just how much this really hurts..
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