special days

today is a special day. or at least it's supposed to be. but it doesn't feel special. it's an ordinary day. much like any other. or maybe that's what i tell myself to stop hurting.

it's kinda stupid how special occasions lead people to expect special things to happen. after all, those are just dates on a calendar. same as all the other 364 (or 365) days. but it doesn't work that way. not for me. no matter how many times i say i'll never expect... i'll never ask for anything every 26th of the month... deep inside, i still do.

oh well. just as all other things do... this too shall pass...