last laughs for 2007

the gifts for the 12 days of christmas. hmm. i think i'd return them all as well, hahaha :p darn.. the holidays certainly hurt..
thankfully, the christmas season is coming to a close. things can get back to normal again. well, *relatively* normal, that is. i'm just glad it isn't just me. hahahaha..

i'm rudolph

*sigh* i knew the holiday blues would catch up to me sometime..

i'm sick today. i feel woozy, my head's spinning 'round (kinda reminds me of the exorcist haha) and my nose is stuffed. *really* stuffed. it's about as red as rudolph's haha.

this is how i keep up with the holiday spirit nyahahaha.

go rudolph. i love your shirt :p

what if..?

yeah, another song post from me. i've been listening to this over and over while driving to and from practice earlier. and i dunno.. it wasn't raining then.. but i just found myself smiling :)

i like this song. hahaha. it's a *hopeful* song. sheesh (rolls eyes) life sure is full of 'what ifs' hahaha.

what if
nina

i often wonder just how can it be
but everytime i think about it
seems impossible to me
i wanna touch you, call out your name
would you be my love, would you be my friend would you feel the same

what if wishes all came true
and each one had a star
that would keep it shining brightly
however near or far
what if a miracle appeared
and heaven was here for us to see
oh what if you, were to fall in love with me?

i imagine a picture in my mind
you and me we'll be together
together for all time
like in the fairytales where everything comes real
would you take my hand, would you understand
just how i feel

it's not impossible, it's not impossible
it happens each day
people find each other
fall in love with one another
it happens this way

it's not impossible, it's not impossible
i don't believe
if i close my eyes
if i make a wish
you'd be loving me

give me some cereal, instead

i love watching those crime shows on tv. my favorites are (of course) the CSI's (although i'm not very fond of horatio and his obsession with his shades).. though i also am fond of watching monk (his weirdness is funny and sad at the same time), law & order and discovery's crime night.

they say that serial killers are almost always male. female killers are rare.. and female *serial* killers even more so. hmmm. i wonder why. is it because female brains are (supposedly) less prone to violence? is it because the "weaker sex" is thought to be more docile.. less inclined to seek out dangerous thrills? or is it because we are thought to be more mentally stable? (hahaha)

well. i don't know. what i DO know is that there are times when i get sooooooo damned angry that i want to literally lash out at everyone. but sometimes.. the anger burrows deep inside me.. hiding. and the hot anger cools down into a more sinister, more calculating form. it turns into hate. and i wonder whether that's how killers start out.

*sigh* i'm no murderess. not in the actual, physical sense, that is. but in my mind, i've wished my enemies ill so many times. and at my worst, i've come even to the point of wishing them dead. thankfully, though, those wishes of mine have never come to pass.

today i find myself hurting badly.. and i find myself wishing again.

damn. somebody just give me some cereal to wish on instead..

who killed humpty dumpty?

humpty dumpty sat on the wall
humpty dumpty had a great fall
all the king's horses and all the king's men
couldn't put humpty together again

i've always found this rhyme amusing. did you ever notice that it never said that humpty was an egg? hahaha. everyone just seems to assume he is. probably because of all those drawings that always accompany the riddle.

you know, it wouldn't be so tragic if someone (other than mr. eggy here) fell off a wall. i mean.. you fall off a wall.. you don't usually *die* from it, right?! not unless the wall is several storeys high, hahaha. but humpty dumpty the egg fell. and so he's a goner.

anyway, this rhyme makes me think about some things:
first of all, what reason did humpty dumpty have for sitting on the damned wall? he's an EGG, for crying out loud!! didn't his mother ever tell him that it's dangerous for eggs to be sitting precariously atop a high wall? hmm. perhaps humpty was a suicidal egg..

and secondly, how did humpty dumpty fall off ? was he a depressed, suicidal egg who thought he had nothing else to live for? was his head a little.. erm.. cracked?! (sorry.. bad pun) or did someone force him to sit upon that wall so he could push humpty and make it look like an accident? if that were the case, who would do that, and why?

maybe the king and his horsemen had something to do with humpty's death. perhaps humpty knew a royal secret. maybe he found out the king was sleeping with the queen's sister's lady-in-waiting or something. or perhaps he heard about the king's plan to murder his wife so that he could find a new queen. and poor humpty became a threat to the peace of the kingdom (or rather, the peace of mind of the king) so his royal highness had his horsemen push humpty off that wall. that's why they could not put him back together again. because they were ordered NOT to even try..

oh well. so much for children's rhymes. who knew these could be so.. uhmm.. gruesome?!?

i think i've been watching too many murder mysteries on dvd of late.. hahahaha

whatever happened to fruitcakes?

for the longest time, whenever i hear "fruitcake" i always think "recycled" hahaha :p well, fruitcakes are notorious for being passed around as recycled christmas gifts, right? it's like *nobody* ever wants to get it.. but they just keep popping up.. and so the poor fruitcakes just get passed on from person to person.. until they return to their original maker/sender, i guess, haha!

but for the past 5 years or so, i noticed that we haven't received fruitcakes from *anyone* at all. weird. it's like fruitcakes have been replaced by other stuff - bags/wallets, mugs, bracelets, handkerchiefs, etc. the situation has gotten so bad that i have to admit.. (gasp) I MISS FRUITCAKES!!

really. i miss them. the literal and the figurative kinds haha :p

where have all the fruitcakes gone?!?!

thank goodness this christmas we received *one* box from a relative. yes! hahaha.

watch out for the return of the fruitcakes! bwahahahahaha..

christmas *sigh*

sana ngayong pasko
ariel rivera

pasko na naman ngunit wala ka pa
hanggang kailan kaya ako maghihintay sa iyo
bakit ba naman kailangang lumisan pa
ang tanging hangad ko lang ay makapiling ka

sana ngayong pasko ay maalala mo pa rin ako hinahanap-hanap pag-ibig mo at kahit wala ka na nangangarap at umaasa pa rin akong muling makita ka at makasama ka sa araw ng pasko

* * *

another songpost for the day. just because the darned tune has been playing on in my head for the past couple of hours hahahaha :p

and i keep thinking of that commercial on tv. sheesh :/

oh well. i love the picture :/

X is the day

here we are!
and as the greeting says..

merry christmas and a happy new year :p

this is normal

3am is NOT late. it is early.

this season is also for the sleep-deprived.
happy christmas tomorrow

hug me.. if you dare

squeeze me. go ahead. squeeze me. give me a really big hug. a *giant* bear hug. after all, i've been needing a hug for the longest time.

thanks for the show of affection. thanks for the assuring words. thanks for the smile. and that peck on the cheek.

now all i need is a squeeze.

i'll squeeze back. it's time to worry.

unending eat-outs

another eat-out for the family today. sheesh. december certainly is a month of lunches and dinners, hahaha! i think i'm going to need to walk off all the additional pounds i'm about to gain this season :( anyway. we ate at serye quezon circle. "we" being mom, dad, my three cousins, tito joe, tita amy, tito lui, ninang and i. that's practically the entire family, velasquez side haha :p

after the lunch, it was pictures galore for everybody, haha. wow. imagine having photo-ops at quezon circle!! nyahaha. we looked like a bunch of tourists (or promdis!!!), it was kinda embarrassing. but fun. hahahaha.

it's been consecutive days of fun :D this is really nice. *really* nice. i hope this season turns pink soon..

cousins unite :p

whew!! this has been a *really* long (and FUN) day :)

this morning, mom and i went to cubao for last-minute shopping. cousins trishia and gabo tagged along. i brought wyjel.. and thoroughly enjoyed the drive in spite of the traffic :p

anyway, i *finally* was able to buy all the stuff i need for christmas haha! yay! i got presents for everybody :) well, all except the aliens :p

after a couple of hours malling, the cousins and i went to UP to drop off my mom at chateau verde. i then toured trishia and gabo around - we went around the shopping center.. the tiangge.. etc. and it was quite dark when we headed home.

well, i asked them to eat dinner at our place.. and when we got home, cousin doms was there too! yay!! hahaha. it was fun having them over. we played with doms' psp - where i got hooked on tekken, bwahahaha!! nice, really nice :p

ahhhhh. christmas is coming. i guess the holidays are all about family :)

the search is on

only 5 more days to go 'til christmas.

hmm. i'm not really sure what i *want* to receive this season. i have wyjel, after all (hahaha). and i am not exactly in the mood for clothes-shopping (though i wouldn't say no to additions to my wardrobe/makeup kit nyahaha).

i guess i am kinda searching, though. but he's kinda elusive. so for now, all i have is froggy, bwahaha.

oh well. we all get what we deserve..

NASA simoy na ng hangin ang pasko

merry christmas party kanina. ho ho ho :p

smiling eyes

i want to buy my new colored contact lenses. my current ones are giving me problems. they make me cry. literally :p

jero's been egging me to make my eyes amethyst-colored. *sigh* i wonder if i can just find lenses such as this. that way, my eyes would always be smiling. no matter what..

we've got the power!!

hahaha. wala lang. mga pix na dapat kahapon ko pa nai-post pero hindi na nagkaroon ng panahon dahil sa pagod at sa sunud-sunod na schedule :p congrats sa lahat ng '08!!! nag-first place din kayo sa powerdance bago mag-graduate!!!! woot! sabi ko na nga ba't hindi bobo ang oeyt. talagang BoBo (alam na nating lahat ang ibig sabihin niyan diba?!) ang ipinakita niyo kahapon, hahahaha. mahal na mahal ko kayong lahat. promise :D

december dinners

for a high-ranking government official, gen. sonny razon certainly is a very humble, unassuming and approachable person :) he's one of my favorite batch '69 persons.. mostly because he's always acted so gentlemanly. and because he doesn't look at all like he's 50+ hahaha :p

anyway, he's the reason why we are attending our nth dinner party for december. tito sonny invited his batchmates to his residence in camp crame for a get-together. it's his way of thanking his friends for the testimonial dinner held in his honor last december 12.

seriously, this month is turning out to be a month of eating, eating and more eating. and for someone who's as anti-party as i am.. the season is really weird.

but today i had fun. mostly coz the crowd at the dinner we went to was the up high batch '69 group. and although i'm practically the only 30-something person there.. i didn't mind at all. i love hanging out with my dad's batchmates. they may be in their 50's, but they sure as heck are more fun to be with than most people i know, hahaha.

still, i'm grateful besp hilda was there. at least i had someone to talk to for the entire night. and though we didn't leave the "white house" 'til past 11pm, i didn't mind so much. i was in good company :)

i hope this coming year, i'd be in the same good company as i was tonight..


PS: happy happy 32nd anniversary mom & dad! :) i wonder if i'd ever find that elusive frog, hahaha :p

shun-day

there's something about this day that.. oh.. i dunno.. makes me feel like a loner.

and it's weird 'coz today is supposed to be a day of celebrations..

the family ate ate mann hann after the mass coz it's mom and dad's 32nd wedding anniversary tomorrow (happy, happy!!). i bonded with cousin em again coz almi wasn't around (she had to have her makeup done at ate nene's place. go figure.. *sigh*). but that's ok.. she's always a riot to be with, haha :p

in the evening, our community celebrated its 15th foundation day at camp aguinaldo. the theme for this year is "rivers goes broadway" - and the various clusters gave their interpretations of popular broadway musicals. cool. (click here to view tons of pix, hehehe)

it's my first time in more than 7 years to attend a foundation day celebration. and being there just made me feel more alienated than ever. i don't really know why. thank god for soulmate.. at least i wasn't so left out. i guess parties and celebrations aren't really my thing. the anti-socialiate in me is back with a vengeance, hahaha.

right after the presentations, dad and i went home. i need to be at school early tomorrow morning.. and i can't afford another vertigo attack. so yeah, i plan to turn in early tonight.

i guess i still haven't recovered from yesterday's excitement hahaha. i need rest. and i desperately need a break from all the craziness of this holiday season.. *sigh*

good thing i could still "project" today hahaha. thanks to my lucky fuchsia top :p i love mango.. :D

today is the 13th

wow. it would be an understatement to say that *a lot* of things happened today. this has been a busy, busy, busy, busy... busy day hahaha :) which is not to say that i'm harassed. noooooo. in fact, this has been one of the nicest days ever :) i'm still feeling "high" right now hahahaha :x

i got this really cool 'zip bag' from tita vix before leaving the house. hahaha. it's an early christmas gift - and i certainly had fun assembling the bag, wahahahaha!! it is *literally* a bag made of zipper. and you can watch it take form as you continue to zip it up. waaaaay cool :)

then at around 9am, i went with dad to cubao to have wyjel 'jazzed up' at sun-x. of course, i had to skip choir prax yet again (boo hoo).. but it was certainly worth it :) i didn't think it would be fun hanging out at the car repair shop to have my car tinted.. fitted with power-locks/alarm.. and having a new stereo installed.. but it was fun :p plus, i got to spend the entire morning with dad (which i rarely ever get to do.. what with the very busy skeds we have) the entire process took around 4 hours.. so i was able to go to upis (for oeyt's prax) at about 2pm already.

batch08 was practicing for the power dance at the new bldg quad when i got to upis. i don't know how prepared they are for monday's kickoff ceremony.. but it looks like they were having fun. or at least, some of th guys.. hehe.. well, i dunno. i think they'll be able to pull off their stunt well. i had a laugh when ludz did his "shootout" thing bwahahaha. let's see what happens on monday.. :p meanem were haha :p and thewhile, aliens were roosting on a nearby tree.. so i shot them before leaving, bwahahahaha. nice shot, huh? :p

i had a tutorial session at ortigas at 5pm so i had to leave upis earlier to make it on time. and sheeeeesh.. did i have a taste of the christmas traffic!!!! it took me forever to get to ortigas. and by the time i got there, my feet hurt and i was sooooo tired :( oh well. still, i had fun. lots of fun :) haha. i bonded with Y so much that day :x too bad i wasn't able to take a picture of him. he looks soooooo nice. wheeeeeee!! i love my "new" car hehehehe :D

i got home extremely exhausted but really, really, really happy :) i was literally drained of energy.. but not so much that i couldn't do a bit of browsing before hitting the sack, hehe. i found a couple of new cartoons from my favorite strip (xkcd of course!); and i saved some of them here in my pc. even transferred a couple to my phone so i can show them to my alien pals bwahahaha :p

happy, happy, happy day :D wheeeeee!! i'm hoping that there won't be any jinx to this trend.. :)

glimmers of light

another long day at school today. but i don't mind. i don't mind at all. hahaha.

i got my new car today!! wheeeee!! hahaha. at last. at loooong last :p ok, so it's not exactly brand new. still, it's certainly a good buy for a second-hand car :) hahaha. i'm going to miss you, dea (awww..) - but i guess we'd still have our special moments together. when wygel is coding :)

i suppose what made this day fun is the fact that i got to spend time with my friends. different sets of friends, at that, haha :p my aliens, mich and winnie all got to ride in wygel with me. er.. not all at once, of course.. but haha.. at least i got to spend time with my favorite people (and aliens hehe).

the pastores a belen (held at the multipurpose hall instead of AS steps) was a hit :p congrats to all the batches who presented (especially to batch'09 for their well-prepared and spirited performances ü)! and of course, congratulations to ms georgina & sir chris for a very successful project :)

like i said, today was a fun day - in so many ways. i hope tomorrow will turn out to be even better. hahaha. i'm seeing glimmers of light everywhere.. ü

wheeeee!!!

yes. this is a great sport indeed. count me in. hahahaha.
i wonder if i can distract other brain-types.. hmmm.. >:p

psychedelic, dude

apparently, i am still not entitled to my one whole day of rest. coz even though today is a wednesday, i still had to be at school early to attend a joint meeting of the science and math departments. we needed to discuss the activities for february's math/science week.

also, batch08 had practice for monday's field demo/street dance/whatever. hahaha. i was actually quite surprised to see a lot of them there. well, good. they should attend practices. win or lose.. they should at least try to win hahaha. anyway, i'm still rooting for them. (they are, after all, my favorite batch (naturally! sheesh..)

i didn't get to eat lunch at all coz we math dept people spent a lot of time setting up the stuff for our "christmas sudoku" game. each department was tasked to come up with a game for the faculty/staff/reps christmas party (1.30-5pm, multipurpose hall).. and well, being math people, that's what we naturally thought of hahaha. i thoroughly enjoyed solving that puzzle with them during lunch. i didn't feel hungry at all.. even though i hadn't eaten breakfast either. seriously :p

when we were done setting up the sudoku puzzles, mich and i went to shoppersville to buy some last minute stuff for the christmas party. we were both so hungry that we rushed to get back to school asap to make sure we didn't miss the food hahaha. the program had already started when we got to the multi; and the games were interesting (not as interesting as the food, though, har har). thankfully, we were able to eat before we passed out from hunger :p and everything just tasted yummy to us. we weren't sure if it was because 1) it was served hot; 2) we were hungry; or 3) it was really yummy :p

after eating our fill, it was finally time to set up the colorful giant sudoku christmas puzzles for our game. hahaha. it was fun to watch the other teachers fumble with the solutions. i realized that most of them didn't even know the mechanics of the game. oh well :p the science people were the first (and only) ones to solve the puzzle. yay, science! :D

it was a good thing we made the puzzles so darned solorful.. or else i dont' think any of the people there would appreciate them hahaha. so much for that "colorful" christmas party. :p

colors continued to hound me.. even when i was at megamall later in the evening. we had our christmas carolling after the thanksgiving mass, and the different voice groups were dressed in varying colors (sopranos wore yellowgreen, altos turquoise, tenors yellow and basses red). candy-colored singers. hahaha. by day's end i was feeling kinda dizzy already - both from the hectic sked and all the bright colors that surrounded me hahaha.

so the day was literally colorful. but probably because of my continuing lack of sleep, i wasn't able to fully appreciate *anything* today hahaha. not even the christmas carolling we did in megamall tonight.

i wonder how those '60s psychedelic dudes felt when they were high.. hahahaha..


PS: i'll post some of our choir carolling pix here next time. for now, i seriously need to rest..

mellow dramatics

so many things happened today that i can still literally feel my head spin. ouch.

am still on the verge of vertigo (nyahaha) due to extreme sleep deprivation. but i have no complaints. in spite of my paranoia.. and in spite of the fact that i missed choir prax yet again.. this day was fun :p

the fildrama class presented their play earlier today.. and since i promised the 08 people i'd watch, i did. hahaha. they gave a nice performance. there were lots of funny moments in the show. and lots more controversial scenes, bwahaha. i actually enjoyed watching them. nice work, guys :D

right after the show, i had lunch with friend 'winnie' (haha). then, we went to the other building for a free eye refraction (project of our health dept). there was such a long line that we literally spent hours chatting and bonding before we could have our eyes checked. oh well. honestly, i didn't mind the waiting part 'coz i felt i really needed to just have time alone with a friend. i wasn't feeling all that "uppity" (haha.. i never really do).. and i didn't know if i wanted to cry, laugh, rant or do all that at the same time. hmmm. i guess sleep deprivation, monthly cycles, stress and variable problems can do that to an alien.

by 5pm, i had to attend the grade level pta meeting. that went quite well.. although not too many parents turned up. hmm. doesn't matter. at least we were able to discuss and decide on the important stuff - namely, the breakdown of expenses for parents of senior students.

i originally planned to leave the meeting by 6pm so i could catch up and go to choir prax in makati. but i decided against it coz.. well.. given the past days' events and the importance of our agenda, i knew i couldn't leave. surprisingly, that didn't bother me too much. in fact, i could say it didn't bother me at all. hahaha. i think i'm undergoing some kind of metamorphosis. hmm. i wonder what kind of alien i'll turn into in my next phase bwahaha.

anyway. i'm tired. very tired. i don't know what's gonna happen tomorrow.. and i don't give a sh*t. hahahahaha. this is so weird in an eerily happy way..

now you see me.. now you don't

instead of feeling "alien-ish," today i feel more.. er.. "ghost-like" :(

maybe this is still an after-effect of yesterday's mess. or maybe it's exhaustion. then again, perhaps it's the december/christmas blues, haha. i don't know.

oh well. the day wasn't *all* bad. i got to have a nice (yummy) dinner at windmills tonight :p as usual, tita nora rieza served wonderfully delicious food. yumyum. and spending time with them is always interesting. if not fun :)

*yawn* i'm really bushed. tomorrow's another day. i wonder if anyone will see me. i wonder if anyone will miss me enough to look for me.. *sigh*

what the blazes..?!

major, major, major blooper. seriously. what the hell were you thinking..?!?! or were you thinking at all? sheesh.

i hate messy stuff. i'm not a fan of messes.. though i have to admit that i cause a fair share of them time and again. but i just hate being dragged into messy situations. especially those that are not of my own doing. *sigh*

oh well. i'm still hazy on a lot of stuff. crazy hazy. hahaha. that sounds nice.

practically the only nice thing that i can refer to this day. *huge sigh*

bang! bang! bang!

my mind is filled with weird thoughts today. well, ok.. granted.. i'm always thinking weird thoughts. still, for this day, if one could see the stuff i'm thinking about.. hahahaha :p

anyway. i went to choir prax today. i'm still feeling kinda loopy.. so i decided i had to at least look pretty (that's my philosophy - if you're feeling down/bad, dress well so you sort of offset the negative vibes) so i dressed nicely - and got lots of compliments from people. hahahahaha!! if only they knew the reason for that >:p

hmm. it's been a sort of good day. definitely not perfect. not the day i was hoping to have. i'm still not normal.. but i kinda realized that everything depends on one's attitude and outlook. so i'm going to write down stuff that made me smile today:

* i was able to spend some time with friend lian. haha. i missed that gal. it's fun to hang out with her.
* i saw my favorite bunch of aliens - even for only a few seconds :p
* surprise!! i got early christmas presents courtesy of tita ruby's balikbayan box hahaha :p thanx for the "care package".. for the lip balm.. the bath & bodyworks shower gels.. and the book with an actual handwritten card (wheeee!! thanx dee.. loved that :p you can be sure i'll read the book asap hahaha)
* mom will be getting a new celphone today. hahaha. another gadget for me to inspect nyahaha
* king alien called me up today.. and i heard the screechy voices of the wacky alien dudes nyahaha. have fun eating the streetfood - those are alien enough for your tastes bwahahaha

oh well. in spite of (or probably because of) my efforts to look at the bright side of things, all i want to do right now is to bang my head against the wall. sheesh. my head hurts :(

i think i'll give this a rest for now

kisses

note to you: here. kiss this instead!! hahahahahaha!!

today i told myself i'd give a "bye for now" kiss to something.. for a week, at least. i don't know if i'd be able to do that.. but we'll see.

also today, i found out that i'll have to "kiss" an old thing goodbye *sniff* *sniff* i'd have to keep it secret for now, though. i don't want to jinx it haha. but by next week, if all goes well, you'll know what i mean in this post :p (only two other people know about this - aside from my folks)

hahaha. kisses, kisses everywhere. everywhere except where it matters most. oh well. genonono, matutuwa ka na naman sa picture na 'to hahahaha.

serious warning

i mean this one.

i am not a complete misanthrope. not really. i just have "moments" haha. oddly, these "moments" are picky - they happen only at certain places and with certain people.

see, even though i'm a great pretender (heck.. i certainly could win a "best actress" award for all my performances!!), there are times when i don't give a sh*t if people feel my negative vibes. during those moments, i just want to be left alone. and anyone who dares to enter into my personal space uninvited gets his/her head bitten off (er.. not literally.. though how i wish it were hahaha)

i'm in one of those moods now. and i'm not making any apologies for it. i'm entitled to my "disturbances" haha. you may call me bitchy.. antisocial.. moody.. or even immature. and i have just one answer for you: i don't care. for a disturbed person like me, other people's rants and opinions about my behavior are the least of my concerns.

apathy rocks!