Xtraordinary day

i met up with X today. we had lunch together at vinzon's. hahaha. we were supposed to meet up a week ago.. but our skeds somehow just didn't line up properly. so i was pleasantly surprised to find out that he was available for lunch today :p

well, it was supposed to be my treat.. but he beat me to it (hmp! daya!!! mura lang 'yung lunch eh! dapat dun ka sa mahal nanlilibre, wahahahaha :p). next time it will be my turn (movie date daw. ha! lugi ako hehehe).

anyway, it was nice hanging out with X again. he's changed in a lot of ways.. though i'm not sure if he's aware of it. small changes - his hair style.. his mannerisms (or lack of them).. his comments ("ang init naman!").. his anecdotes (all about gals! sheesh :p).. his outlook in life.. his cell phone!! hahaha. he's still the same guy that i knew.. but at the same time, different in so many ways.

it's weird.. spending time with X. after all, we were together for *four* years. we've been through a lot. gone through so much. shared so many memorable moments. then today.. well, today was.. uh.. friendly :p i don't know if i should feel happy or sad about it. maybe a little bit of both. i'm glad that in spite of what happened in the end, at least we're friends. still, i couldn't help but feel a tiny twinge of unexpected jealousy everytime he would talk about girls.

oh, i know we're not likely to get back together. and we've both moved on. it's just that sometimes.. it's good to have someone to hold. someone to laugh & cry with. someone who understands you completely - inside and out. someone who thinks of you every waking (and sleeping) moment. someone you love.. and who loves you back.

right now, i have no illusions about romance. not with him. probably not with anyone else. at least, not now. and not in the near future. it just goes to show how much *i* have changed, too. my looks.. my priorities.. my feelings.. my anecdotes (or lack thereof).. my outlook in life. i'm still the same girl he knew.. or rather, *thought* he knew.. but at the same time, i'm now different in so many ways.

and i don't know if this is a good thing or not..

PS: contrary to what the picture is saying.. i did *not* fix it on my own. i'm not even sure if the stitches will hold..