desperately wanting

they say the most effective prayer is the one uttered in desperation. hmm. i couldn't disagree with that. i should know. i can definitely relate..

sometimes, though, things are different. there are times when it gets really hard to pray. no matter how desperate you are. or rather, *because* of how desperate you are :(

i'm not used to writing down my prayers; and i am definitely not a newbie when it comes to praying. but today.. i dunno.. it was just really hard to come up with the words and the music. it's easier to come up with codes and ciphers than to just say everything as it is.

well, what did i expect? it is difficult to make supposedly impossible things happen..
i'm quite sure *you* got the message.. *sigh*