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today is the deadline for submitting the 3rd quarter grades.
i have *not* submitted mine.
oh, the grades are ready. but i'm not.
i don't want to pass my grading sheets yet.
i'm having second thoughts.
and to just hand over my folder to the records officer..
well, that just seems so.. final.
so i'm holding on to it for the meantime.
even if all i ever do is *look* at the damned sheet.
it's not as if i can magically change those grades into something more satisfactory.
well, actually, i can.
but i won't. it simply is not done that way.
so i continue to hold on.
i continue to do nothing.
even if it does not make sense.
even if it's really irrational.
and even if it's not exactly "healthy" or "beneficial" for me to do so.

it's not so difficult to read between the lines, is it?