oddly familiar

i had dinner with yugs at max's gateway. hahaha. it's been a while since we last went out (december i think?!).. and i'm sort of glad i took some time off from the hectic sked to just relax and unwind.. :)

anyway. lots of stuff were oddly familiar - the food, the conversation, the company, heck, even the place (gateway!!!) nyahahaha. oh well..

now i'm left with some thinking to do. and i'm not exactly sure that's what i want right now.. *sigh*

some oddly familiar stuff are just too odd for comfort..

still yawning

no day-off for me :( darnit.. it's a monday! i'm supposed to be recovering from sleep deprivation today. but nooooo. i have to be at school to attend to promotion matters (yet again?!?!?) and join the meeting with non-tenured faculty members. *sigh* oh well..

i got home at around 2.30pm.. after an emergency meeting with the school's apc. i'm feeling even more tired than ever. i still haven't recovered enough energy.

and tomorrow's gonna be the start of another work week.

great. just great.

i think i'm turning into a walking zombie.

i *seriously* need my caffeine fix.

i'm missing starbucks' dark mocha frap.. :(

clearly, that's not the only thing i'm missing

the long and winding road

ok, i admit it. i initially had misgivings about driving the group to the pgr today. i mean, come on.. with the high price of gasoline, who wouldn't?! and the sacred heart novitiate is not exactly a stone's throw from our place. plus, i kinda miss serving in the tv mass.. so yeah, i really didn't want to drive all the way to the pgr.

but in a way, i'm glad i did. for one thing, i enjoy long drives. so long as i'm not stuck in traffic or anything haha. besides, it was fun to have some 'bonding' time with other music ministers. it was also good to hear the retreatants share their stories so sincerely. *sigh* it makes me feel a bit nostalgic XP oh, and the lunch was delicious. fish fillet (in lemon butter sauce, i think) with mashed potatoes and soup. yumyum XD

and then of course, what made my day really happy was when my rainwish came true XP wheeee!! it rained hard on our way back to megamall. hahahaha. sweet!!! this day is awesome.. :D

the long and winding road always comes back to you.. :D

saturday night fever

had choir practice this morning XD er.. rather, we had choir 'recording' today haha. i brought the m-audio recorder to st paul's today, and we were able to record an entire mass lineup - all plus one. haha. cool. wayyyyy cool XP

from makati, i sped to my usual saturday appointment for the sem. hmm. managed it in (sort of) record time haha. i wasn't late, thank goodness. but most everybody was, tsk. and the 'most' wasn't even half. hahaha. oh well.. let's just see what happens next week, nyahahaha..

well, though this day was relatively happy (oops. hindi pala relatively.. happy pala talaga hahaha), i still have to say.. i'm reaaaaalllly tired :( so exhausted i'm feeling feverish already. though not with excitement or anticipation, nyahahaha.

how i wish.. XP

see back

this is the back of my pc. (i was able to see it 'coz dad brought my comp to the shop to have it reformatted) at the risk of sounding nerdy, i'd have to say.. i love the geometric patterns i found there hahaha XP like the concentric circles, each subdivided into 8 congruent regions (i keep imagining 45-degree angles hahaha). i also like the flower-like thingy underneath it, as well as the patterns of stars a couple of inches near the bottom of the unit. hahaha. who would have thought pc's could be so geometric..?! XP

anyway. i rarely get a glimpse of the back of my computer, even though i use it a couple of hours each day. i guess when you think about it, the same can be said of the people we interact with on a daily basis. we see them.. talk to them.. heck, they may even be our friends. but we rarely get a glimpse of their 'hidden selves'..

ok, enough of this. i'm not comfortable thinking thoughts that go the profound direction. not right now..

i wish you'd let me know the real you. what are you afraid of, anyway..? :(

still spiraling

skipped school today. woke up to a spinning room. not literally, of course.. but it sure felt like it.

vertigo. ugh. it definitely does *not* give one a good feeling.

it's not the only thing that makes me feel this bad..

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thinking straight

i am in my classroom right now.. planning my lesson for the week - parallel lines. hmm. i enjoyed the java applet i found in one site.. hahaha.. i had a nice time clicking and dragging that orange dot. nyahahaha. my OCness is getting the better of me again.

anyway. since yesterday i've been staring at straight lines on my pc (laptop) screen. i suppose you could say i am thinking straight haha.. but nahhh :p

*sigh* the things i go through for you..

someday :D

an 84-year old bride?! bwahahaha. sheesh. this makes me wonder if it's too early for me to say 'no' to the marriage thing nyahaha XP

anyway. it's monday so no classes for us in UP. but darnit.. it's not fair!!! dep ed declared 'no classes' in all levels today (thanks to frank).. and i didn't even get to enjoy the rainy day suspension. tsk :(

and it's not even raining today. not a single damned bit. grrr.

i'm hoping that by some miracle, classes on wednesday will be suspended..

i've never been good at denials..

thanks frank..

it's been weeks since i've last updated this blog. haha. the longest hiatus ever. but this sunday, i'm stuck here at home for the entire day - thanks to supertyphoon 'frank' XP

i think it's the first time i got bummed at the rain. well.. actually i'm still thankful for the rain, even though it's caused me to stay indoors the whole time. but i was really hoping i could go out today. augh.

so now i'm cooped up here at home. i'm grateful for the (much needed) rest. i was watching my csi ny dvd.. that is, until my mom took over the boob tube. *sigh* so now i'm here.. updating my blog.. finally.

here's hoping that tomorrow will turn out to be a better day..

i *am* still waiting for you to keep your word, you know. i wish you could be like the typhoon - FRANK

not me

this bottle kept me going from morning 'til afternoon. seriously.

it's the first day of the gss, and i woke up early to get to rfm by 8am. given the sort of stressful day i had yesterday, it was kinda difficult to drag myself off of my bed.. but it had to be done :(

i didn't have much time to eat.. so i only had a few spoonfuls of breakfast before i had to leave the house.

when i got to rfm, i had to set up the recorder, instruct bro ed to take some pictures and put together some last minute stuff for our meeting with the council. haha. it was a crazy morning, all right XP

soulmate and i went to the nearby 7-11 to discuss the print media plans with the council and the admin assistants. we ordered some snacks so that we could sit there for the meeting, hehe. i had siopao and a bottle of blue virgin soda.

and that's practically all i had the entire afternoon too, hahaha.

sheesh. siopao and blue virgin. my food for today.

if you ask me who's happy.. who's satisfied.. who's not complaining... who's not hungry.. who's not thirsty.. who's well rested.. i have only one answer:

NOT ME :(

darnit. i still hate having to wait.. X(

who.. what.. when.. where.. why..

er. lots of questions in my head today.

WHOM will i assign the student teachers to? darnit.. i have been going over their schedules and i can't seem to fit their skeds to ours :( it wasn't as simple as i thought, after all..

WHAT should i do first tomorrow at the GSS? there isn't anyone assigned to take pictures.. or to write an article. soulmate is sick, and i'm not sure she'd be able to attend. i won't be around in the afternoon to record the talks. *sigh* priorities, priorities..

WHEN will i find time (and energy) to check all the papers that have suddenly piled up today?! sheesh.. :(

WHERE should i look for interesting animations and stuff to introduce the lesson on parallel lines next week?! i've been surfing at school since this morning and have not been able to come up with a single promising site. grrr.. X(

and..

WHY do i get the feeling that something is amiss again..? *sigh*

don't tell me this is jealousy or insecurity. sasakalin kita kung may gana ka pang magselos sa wala. you know how i hate it when you turn all quiet on me..

turning pink

i bought this bag yesterday while waiting for the jerk who blocked wyjel at the educ parking lot. it's nice and pink.. with weirdly happy monkey prints on it. i like it coz it has lots of zippers (yeah, i just loooove zippers.. go figure :p) plus, joe fits snugly in the bag.. so yay! ü

it took me great effort to get out of bed this morning. i think all the walking yesterday made my legs feel sore. oh well. it wasn't so bad, anyway. i probably just lack much-needed exercise, hehe :p

the rest of the day turned pink for me. i'm grateful for the fact that we did not have an execom meeting today (yipee!). we were able to have our first department meeting for the school year.. and it wasn't so bad, hehe. oh.. and the student teachers are here, too.. yay! XP (though i don't think the kids will be celebrating that fact hehehe)

all in all, it's been a nice day. woohoo. happy, happy, happy XP

i think i have a 'happiness hangover' from yesterday.. ü

100 years

HAPPY BIRTHDAY UP!!! XP

june 18, 2008. UP officially turns 100. woohoo!! and to celebrate, we (read: UPIS peeps and those from other UP units) paraded to quezon hall. and boy, did i envy all those who wore their centennial shirts. tsk. sabi ko na nga ba dapat hindi ako nagsuot ng filipiniana. leche ang init!

i have to thank my alien magnet, though.. coz i was *really* fortunate to bump into admin this morning. hahaha!!! woot. thanx, wosa.. you really made my day. i wouldn't have known how to get through that parade in my darned kimona without you, wahahahaha XP gotta thank maykel, too.. coz he and wosa kept me company while some jerk blocked wyjel at the educ parking. oh well.. guess that just *had* to happen so that wosa and i could watch our *first* oblation run wahahahaha XP

oh. and the announcement of the approved centennial bonus also turned my day a tad bit sunshinier (er.. or since i'm rainlover, i guess it made my day rainier, hehehe) ;) it's certainly a wonderful day.. happy birthday, UP!!! *mwah*

iisipin ko pa kung papayag ako sa hinihingi mo hahaha. cheeseburger na lang kaya..?! XP

*warning: this post has math content*

hahaha. it's the start of another school week.. and i don't know if it makes me happy today XP

i missed the flag ceremony today. drat. i was late for class because i did not anticipate the *very* heavy traffic in katipunan. i forgot.. ateneo and miriam colleges have classes too hahaha. so i got stuck in traffic for an hour or so.. and was almost 15 minutes late for class. tsk :(

well, my students didn't seem to mind so much, hahaha. i think they were not looking forward to the geometry lesson, haha.

i wonder why. i happen to like today's notes on the board, hehehe XP

happiness is..

.. not having class at the start of the week (woohoo!!!)
.. being able to watch your favorite series in dvd all day long ü
.. having lots of time in your hands to do whatever
.. getting the willpower to *not* do something you know you'd be better off not doing
.. finding out that your (in)action bore fruit
.. falling asleep with a smile on your face ü

ahhhh. i think i'm beginning to love mondays.. hahahaha XP

dad's day

ü HAPPY FATHER's DAY!! ü

the planned dad's day celebration didn't push through today, though :( as it turns out, today is also cousin erwin's birthday.. so mom, dad and i could not leave megamall early. we had lunch with the jordas (read: tito efren's family) at mann hann. after eating *a lot* of food, we proceeded to.. (guess where?!?) the foodcourt!! sheesh. it's another one of those nonstop eating sprees we have every sunday.

it was kinda hot in the foodcourt, though.. and after several hours of staying there, mom discovered she lost her voice! oh well. that sort of caused us to leave megamall (finally!).. and i asked mom and dad if we could drop by metrowalk first. i bought a couple of dvds (i luv csi!!) then we went home.

hmm. this is probably the most uneventful dad's day ever :( sheesh. it really sucks.

i wish this day were more special. i wish *you* would make it more eventful for me *sigh*

i'm a law-evading citizen

we had choir prax in makati today.. and soulmate hitched with me to st paul to attend to the youth formation scheduled this morning. we were almost at the venue when a traffic cop signaled me to pull over at the corner. uh oh..

anyway, i could not think of any traffic violation i committed.. so i asked the cop what was wrong. he then pointed to my front license plate (the UP centennial commemorative plate) and asked for the accompanying documents for it. i complied.. and then he proceeded to quote a portion of the instructions. the document stated that the commemorative plate had to be placed the original plate. uh huh. well, yeah.. that's what i did. but the cop said on top of meant "nasa taas ng plaka.. hindi natatakpan 'yung original na plate"

er. duh?!? if i remember my english grammar correctly, on top of translates to nakapatong in filipino. i think what he meant was that the commemorative plate had to be above the original one. which, frankly, would look silly and ugly at the same time.

but the traffic cop did show me a photocopy of a circular.. and it did state a new ruling about how commemorative plates should be used. these should be placed above or beside the original plate.. so that the license number would not be covered. uh huh. right. setting aesthetics aside, that would be a good idea, i guess..

but i don't think i'd be doing that any time soon.

i didn't buy a commemorative plate just to display it "ugly-ly" hahahahaha XP

time to take it off. i am a law-abiding citizen, after all.. hehehe

paraskevidekatriaphobia

the almost "un-pronounceable" title of this post simply means "fear of friday the 13th" hehe XP

i'm not a paraskevidekatriaphobic. i'm not afraid of this date.. but it does interest me. the date, and the fear of it haha. what's so unlucky about friday the 13th's anyway? and why blame it on broken mirrors, ladders and black cats?

speaking of cats. the ones that regularly visit our department are (literally) kinda wild. i am a cat-lover. but not of these. one of them scratched one of my co-teachers today on her foot. i think that's 'coz she accidentally kicked the cat that was sleeping near her leg haha. but that cat wasn't black. it was an orange tabby cat with a bad temper.

and i don't think that the 'cat scratch' had anything to do with the date today XP

still.. i never said that friday the 13th's are something to look forward to. this day isn't exactly what i'd call a 'good' one for me, either..

in spite of the existence of that 'elite' group.. i'm glad you (sort of) stood up for me. thanx..

H.I.D - ing

happy independence day, philippines.. haha!

and yet we have class today. with a 'special' flag ceremony marking off the holiday. at 8am. interrupting the first period class. hahahaha. that sure was funny..

nothing spectacular happened today. just the usual thursday. we had our first (non-joint) execom meeting this afternoon.. and it was ok, i guess. it wasn't as bad as i thought it would turn out to be, hahaha.

this day is so ordinary, it's so.. blah XP

so far away

*sigh* i'm having a difficult time this school year. i don't know if it's because of the additional responsibility of being a department head, the scarcity of aliens in the campus, the extremely annoying heatwave, the many ongoing changes at school or a combination of all the above-mentioned reasons :(

anyway, it's hard enough to teach mathematics. it's much harder to teach it to kids who do not like it. kids who are quite rowdy by nature. i find that by the end of the day, my voice is hoarse from shushing them; and i'm tired as heck even though i have only two classes each day *sigh* i wonder if i'm getting too old for this kind of thing, nyahahaha..

why, oh why is it so hard to make math appealing?!

i am in desperate need of energy. i need a break from school. even more than the students do, i suppose, hahaha XP

so close.. yet so far away. why is my energy source so elusive..?!

feeling catatonic

i spent the better part of my day fixing up the math department's new home. we finally have the 'new' tables and chairs.. and most of the remaining junk has already been thrown away. but goodness.. the room is *really* HOT! (and i don't mean that in a good way, at all hahaha) we still don't have any working stand fan (except for one - that's almost about to go too).. and the weather is certainly not cooperating. grr.

all the fixing and cleaning up is enough to make me just want to go home and take a nice long bath. and i envy this cat that just happily settled into one of our table's nooks. hmmm. i can't wait to just curl up in one corner and take a break from all the heat.. :(

i'll be going to choir prax in a while, though.. so there's no rest for me. yet. hahaha. i'm already starting to feel catatonic.

maybe all i need is a nice cool shower to wash off all of the day's dirt and grime hahaha..

how time flies..

bwahahahaha.. i had a kick out of this picture i took during our 'cousins gimmick' yesterday.

wcd pointed out the very prompt delivery of north park - 12 years!!! woohoo.. hahahahahahaha XP

anyway. no classes today. happy independence day. er.. sort of. only in the philippines does a national holiday get moved to a different date every year. sheesh..

give me something to *truly* smile about. pleeeease..

fish be with you

tomorrow, classes officially start. for my cousins thea, gabo & dom, at least hehe. so as a 'last hurrah' we gorgeous cousins decided to have our own 'gimmick' time after the mass at megamall.

it was wcd's idea to go to ocean park, partly to relax, partly to have some 'cousin bonding time' and partly as a gift to gabo on his bday XP so off we went, the four of us.. and we had a fun time looking at them fishies hehe. cool XP

i had a literally magical day today *smile*

thanx.. i think.. hahahahaha XP

a course on lying

"of course i'm in love with you" hahahaha. wow. i would *love* to hear that nyahahaha. i doubt i ever will, though. tsk. and on the very very slim chance that i do.. well.. hahaha.. i'm sure i'll remember *this* post XP

not everybody is good at lying. and not everyone is able to distinguish lies from the truth. i don't claim to be good at either of these. 'nuff said haha.

*sigh* i really, really wish i were somewhere else. ugh. i hate it when this happens. oh well. maybe next time..

of course i'm in love with you. duh.

to die for XP

i don't know about you.. but i would *love* to be in this kind of a relationship.. bwahahahaha *evil grin*

i suppose the ever-present threat of imminent death and danger does have its appeal hehehe.

what a day. un lang ang masasabi ko hahaha

i consider myself lucky

today is the first day of classes for ay 2008-2009. all things considered, i can say it's been a really, really nice day :)

for one thing, a lot of '08 peeps dropped by upis today (na-miss ko kayong lahat. pramis XP) a couple of aliens came over too - carlito, admin, apol (waw. ang ganda ng bagong hair!!! XP), froggy (tahimik ka pa rin?!?!) and xerox. wheeeeee!! haha. that would have been enough to make my day.. but wait.. there's more!! haha..

i accompanied carlito to the registrar's office after my class. he paid for his tuition - it didn't really take too long. then my 'weirdness beacon' drew gal-pal carolle & boytoy to the reg's office as soon as we were done paying. haha. the four of us dropped by xerox's place - we exchanged 'remembrances' hehe XP

afterwards, we were feeling quite hungry already, so we went to the nasa launchpad to have lunch. jbee as usual, haha. (damn, i didn't realize how much i missed the place, bwahahaha) carolle noticed i was acting weirdly (read: too sunshiny-perky). hmm. couldn't help it. being annoyed does that to me. so does hunger, haha. but aliens are used to me being that way. guess she isn't haha XP

well, in spite of the fact that my order (chicken!! haha.. wosa.. manok!!! XP) arrived *really* late, i still felt quite lucky. i got another one of those 'freebie' receipts they give at jbee. yeah, yeah.. i know they always give that. still.. it has a 'congratulations' note there.. so i still felt lucky, nyahaha XP

back at school, the four of us had another (mis)adventure. i won't give the details here.. but i'll say that i had a lot of fun with the 'mission impossible' theme hahaha. that was cool. tsk. aiding and abetting. i seem to be good at that XP

that's when i met admin & apol waiting for carlito & me at aling norm's place XP and i got admin's remembrance for me (awwwww) nice chicken. hahaha. but i *really* treasure the note. especially since it came from *admin* XP waw. napabilib mo talaga ako dun. akalain ko ba naman na magsulat *ka* ng ganun?!?! tsk. ang tanging mas makakagulat lang sa akin ay kapag ung bampira ang magsulat ng ganun. hahahahahaha. mangyayari lang un kapag magugunaw na ang mundo XP

i was able to go home late already.. mostly 'coz my car is coding every thursday. but also 'coz we did some fixing up in the department. hmm. i really wish we could get the math department all settled, cleaned and organized. *sigh* a loooooooong way to go and much, much more work to be done. but i was still fortunate - 'coz aliens delly & siege dropped by to help. thanx guys XP

anyway, as soon as i got home, i unwrapped xerox's gift.. and wow!! hahaha. it's.. hmm.. how should i say it..?! it's so.. ME!!! hahaha. it certainly looks like something i would give. so i told her that her remembrance reminds me of me, hahaha. well, it actually *should* remind me of her.. but since it reminds me of myself.. er.. it sort of is almost the same thing haha XP tsk. magka-wavelength nga ata talaga tayo. it takes somebody like us to appreciate a gift like that nyahahaha. thanx sis XP

so there. a bunch of reasons why i consider myself lucky. certainly a great way to start the new school year. i hope i didn't hog all my luck, hahaha. thanx to everybody who made this day awesome.. XP

and yes.. that *does* include you.. ;-)

dontcha wish..?!

if only your heart were for sale.. :(

* it is quite ironic that in life, the person that brings out the best in you and the one that makes you strong is actually your weakness

* what's sad about loving someone? it's when you're not good enough because somebody else still occupies his mind and heart. and you know you can't compete with that. not even a bit

* i guess love does fade. and sometimes, the heart does get tired of longing.. of hoping. and sometimes you just have to accept the fact that some things can never be.. and that you should be content with things as they are. leaving is a choice. staying is a choice. but you ca never really ask someone to stay or to leave. it's a choice they have to make for themselves. and sometimes, no matter how much you beg them to stay or how hard you try to make them leave, you really have no control over what they will choose..

i have been getting a daily dose of emo texts lately.. so i thought i'd make another emo post hahaha. and it's a wednesday. nyahahaha. i wonder what it is about wednesdays that.. hmm.. never mind..

anyway. i can't sleep. as usual. darned insomnia. my liver and other internal organs are all screaming for their rest and recuperation. and i'm powerless to help them. tsk.

must be all this emo sh#t..

seeing dots

i can't believe i'm saying this, but i am actually enjoying staying in school 'til evening hahaha XP

i don't know why.. but i like what i've been doing these past days. maybe because it mostly involves sitting in front of a computer and typing away (whether it's class skeds, faculty promotions or justification letters). niiiice.

still, by the end of the day, i could almost see spots right in front of my eyes hahaha. i'm just grateful that i still had enough energy to drive home from work. i did NOT have enough in me to still go to that wake though (our group was supposed to sing at a wake in pasig at 7pm).

time sure flew. i didn't even notice how late it was until nans called me up to ask if i was going to meet up with them in pasig. i thought it was only around 5pm then. turns out it was already 6.30pm haha. i couldn't make it in time for the 7pm mass even if i flew XP oh well..

i wish i could go right to sleep now but i can't. no, i'm not busy. darned insomnia. *sigh* i need a cure for sleepless nights. especially since classes will be starting soon. wih me

getting through the day

well i suppose it was just as i expected. today sure was a busy, busy, busy day XP

i was at school early today. had to go over the promotion papers with the department apc. then we had our first general faculty meeting for the school year - with our new principal, too haha. that went quite well. hmm.. looks like from now on, meetings would not drag on for hours hehe XD

i did not expect to be in the execom meeting in the afternoon, though. i thought the school's apc would include the past department heads. so yeah, that kinda threw my sked off. i didn't mind so much, though.. coz i had no other plans. hmm. i guess *that* fact is what i mind haha XP

so i got home in the evening.. quite tired but feeling accomplished. sort of hehe. i wonder if this is the start of busier days ahead. i sure hope not.. *sigh*

made me think

weird heart picture, haha. it reminded me of a story friend **** told me. hmm. maybe i should send her this pic as well hahahaha XP

oh well. i'm not feeling so well right now :( been coughing for the most part of the day. darn it. just when classes are about to start. tsk. i think i'm allergic to school nyahahaha XP

i'm off to rest for a while.

tomorrow's another long day. i don't know whether to look forward to it or not.. XP