i hate looking at the mirror these past few days. i don't like my eyes. they look.. dead :(there's something terribly unhealthy about chronic pretending. but at times, it just can't be helped. *sigh* i hate feeling this way. but the one thing i hate more than this feeling is spreading the feeling to my friends. so no.. i would not be all weepy in front of them. especially not when they're so happy. but dammit, it's really hard to keep up the front.
and sure.. i'd like everyone else to think the meeting caused my red eyes. or maybe the eye strain. or the sleep deprivation. hahaha. but what the hell. who am i kidding, anyway?! i know why i've been shunning all reflective surfaces lately. and yeah, he probably knows it too.
this is just terrible. but as they say, that which is truly valuable is worth fighting for.
no, he's not. but i am. and this time, i'm determined to fight for me.. since no one else will..
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