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today sucks. no particular reason. it just does *sigh*

woke up feeling slightly dizzy again. and my eyes are hurting a lot, dammit. i think i'm going to be sick :( i hope not.. i can't afford to be sick now. too many things to do. and too many plans upcoming. i will *not* let any virus or bacteria ruin this month. rawr.

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i can't believe september is almost over. sheesh. that dreaded c-day is drawing nearer and nearer and i'm powerless to stop it :( not that i hate the occasion. i believe in it - or at least, in what it stands for. but i don't particularly enjoy the celebration. call me old and/or cynical. but i just don't find that much joy in celebrating the yuletide season.

but the month isn't over *yet* haha. i may dread c-day but before then is b-day bwahaha. and i'll be damned before i let anything or anyone stop me from enjoying *this* particular b-day. rawr. double rawr.

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oh well. it's another new beginning. yet it's actually the same thing happening all over again. when i was a lot younger the phrase "history repeats itself" always confused me. i didn't really believe in it - after all, what's the point of studying all those dead people and their lives (not to mention countless dates and places) if we're just going to commit the same mistakes they did? shouldn't we have learned? shouldn't we be wiser now?

tsk. vicious cycles are about as difficult to stop as hurricanes.

i cannot understand why
i completely understand
icu. only u. dammit. why does everything else fade into the background when you are there..?!