shots, shots, shots

i'm following the footsteps of a friend of mine who decided to do a project:

come up with at least one really good photo per day, for one whole year.

so i'm trying to do the same. which means i'll have to bring drexzel along almost every day. wow. i sure hope i can keep this up for the next 358 days or so.. haha.

it's kinda obvious that i'd rather take pictures of inanimate objects than people, huh? :p

picture post

long day. quite a busy one, so i'll just post some pix that more or less describe where i've been and what i've done today.

1) vanity pix. i think camwhoring becomes more pron0unced when you start becoming interested in cameras and photography hehehe.. :p

2) sample shots. somehow, the school looks a lot nicer through the lens..

3) usual wednesday routine. dad and i ate at cbtl megamall before the mass. i ordered my favorite moroccan mint and their cheese muffin (which was delish, but quite dry).

4) unusual routine for a wednesday. after the mass, our ministry held our (belated) christmas party at cabalen resto. our musical director also celebrated his **th bday with us :)

:'(

i'm sad today. i don't know exactly why. maybe i need a good cry - but i can't find the time or the opportunity to do so.

damn this feeling. i fucking hate being emo

alienanities

meet naf and flux - the newest inhabitants of the wyjel the rocketship disguised as a car :p

this day is all about taking pictures (hey, what better way to spend the last day of xmas break, right?!).. and i started by shooting my favorite (inanimate) aliens :)

lots and lots of pictures to post! haha. friend mich and i took around 700 shots between us :D

(my shots are here in this link, if you're interested to take a look)

i suppose this makes up for all the busy days we won't be able to photo-walk these coming weeks, haha :p we'll see though.. you never know when you can sneak in a shot or two.. :p

camera post.. picture post :)

no, this is NOT drexzel (my new 'baby'). it's my 'nikon 4Gb usb'! haha. i thought i'd start using it 'coz i've been bitten by the photography bug ever since mich and i bought our first dslrs last week :)

ever since i bought my nikon D3100, i've been hooked on taking pictures. yeah, i'm excited to learn photography.. shooting people (with the camera, of course, not a gun), interesting foliage and other stuff. but you know the photographer's bane - he who takes the pictures is not included in his shots.

well, camwhore that i am, i always make sure that i get my picture taken, haha! that's why i prefer having a friend with me when i'm shooting pics.. just so i'd have a couple of pictures of myself - proof that yeah, I WAS THERE hahaha :))

anyway, here's a compilation of some of my pictures taken today at megamall after the epiphany sunday mass.. (i especially love the one taken with darth vader)

writing into 2011

i got my starbucks 2011 planner a couple of weeks ago. in my opinion, it's a lot better than last year's. still, i don't intend to use it much.. mostly because the pages are lined; and because of my small writing, that becomes a problem.

instead, i decided to use the 2011 version of my planner last year:

the pink version of "this journal will actually change someone's life in 2011" :D it has lots of cool trivia, as well as loads and loads of space to write on! haha. plus, the pages are colorful (warm brown with splashes of color). perfect for perennially-bored people such as i :p

i can't wait to write my first entry for this year :)

happy new year!

first day of 2011 and guess how i spent it?

well, like most other people (i guess), the first 10 hours of my day were spent in bed (ok, i slept at 2.30am and woke up at 10am. still, i was in bed, haha). then i had brunch while spending quality time with zeena (as i always do) and fell asleep again from 2-3pm! haha. talk about wasting more than half the day!!

i wasn't going to let the first day of the decade go to waste, though.. so i quickly freshened up, dressed and went out, bringing along drexzel. hence the picture above.

yup. i spent january 1st taking shots around UP campus :) it was fun.. but also a bit lonely. i had originally planned to walk around campus with my dad for company - but he had to stay home with my mom (who's experiencing a bout of vertigo). then i asked friend mich to go with me, but then she couldn't leave her aunt's place in time to meet up. so it was just me and drex.. and a bunch of other photographers/joggers/mortals doing our own thing at the quezon hall :p

when finally it was getting too dark to take pictures, i decided to head back home. i had to nix my original plan to drop by the UP chapel coz i couldn't find a place to park wyjel. the place was packed! sheesh. no 'quiet time' for me in that aspect, i guess. but that's fine. i had enough time to myself, anyway..

so there. it's been a lazy but fun january 1st for me. not a bad way to start the year or decade :)

how did YOU spend your first day of 2011? :D

*note: this post is here primarily because of my pencil-loving friend, xerox, who time and again bugs me to update this blog :D

crack

i don't know how you can go from being in 7th heaven one moment and down in the deepest dumps the next. i can't explain it, but it seems to be one of my talents. my mood swings and roller coaster highs and lows are unbelievable.

anyway. i really hate being able to read between the lines. i'd like to think it's simply a case of paranoia; but it's not. i've been proven correct so many times, in spite of my wishing to be oh-so-wrong, that i'm afraid this time my hunch is once again right. *sigh*

so apparently nothing's changed. except that now i've sacrificed more and am almost immune to the ill treatment. it sucks that i'm the only one who knows what's going on and that i can't tell anyone about how i'm feeling. hell, i only recently figured out why i was hurting so bad; i couldn't possibly explain it to anyone else.

turns out i do wish i weren't so invisible and dispensable. ha. who'd have thought, huh?

fictional character

fb has been taking up a lot of my time for the past months. but it's not really the reason why i neglected this blog. i'm not exactly sure why, but for almost two years already, i just lost my interest in writing. more than that, though, i think i lost my interest in what's going on around me. i mean, it's pointless to write when there's nothing for you to write about.. when nothing interests you anymore and you just don't give a damn what's happening around you..

of late, however, i've been feeling.. restless. irritable. BITCHY. ok, ok.. i admit, i usually am bitchy and irritable and restless. but this is different. totally different. for the past couple of weeks i've had this urge to spill out whatever it is that's keeping me so edgy (though, frankly, i have no idea what that is.. i just know i have to let it out).

so here i am.. back to writing. though what it is i'm writing about, i have yet to figure out. at the moment, i feel more like a fictional character - someone with a story, yet someone who's not "all there." i'm flitting between 'realities' right now.

oh well. let's see how long i can keep this up..

ringing in my ears

everyone ringing in the new year.. welcoming it with a bang. hmm. well, not me. 2010 blasted into my life so quickly it left me gasping for air. oh well.

2009 was probably one of the most "blah" years i've had. and while i enthusiastically bid it good riddance, i feel a lot of trepidation in greeting this new year.

after all, it's the first day of 2010 and already i've failed to keep one of my resolutions. ha. good luck with the next 364 days..

yada yada yada

it has been a while since i visited this place. i have no explanations; and i make no apologies.

i feel like i've changed so much this past year. 2009 didn't exactly bring to fruition all the promises it held when it started. i can't wait to bid this year goodbye.

it says a lot when the only times i am actually able to write something is when i'm so upset i find it hard to breathe..

wholesome video

yes.. this IS a wholesome video hahaha. '
it just depends on how green your mind is.. nyahaha :p

look at me

this video is so cool :p i'm not sure if this was taken during ondoy's havoc-wreaking moments; but it's still kinda freaky hehehe. freaky in a good way for me, at least..

terribly wonderful

i love oxymorons. probably coz i am one, myself (original copy, right xerox?)

i just heard that classes in all levels are suspended until friday this week. hmm. we have ondoy to thank for that. talk about total devastation..

anyway. just posting an entry here coz i need to post something. anything.

oh well..

watch over me

the heavy rains have stopped pouring. ondoy has left the country, at last.. but not before leaving almost the entire metro in shambles.

this morning, though.. the skies opened up. just for a little while. it was enough to make me feel twistedly (and ambivalently) happy.. yet scared.

i'm tired. so very tired.

i don't want to have to keep waiting for the rest of my life. i don't want to settle either.

what a mess.

just watch over me..

the color suits the day

bdays (mine, at least) are not my favorite days. the celebration today was a simple lunch at superbowl with family. here's wcd with me.. fiddling with his camera (while i'm opening a gift from cousin almi).

it's not a bad day. there is, after all, so much to be grateful for (my bdays are notorious for bringing about calamitous typhoons such as milenyo and ondoy). our family was spared from the flood, the traffic and all inconveniences (except for a couple of hours of internet disconnection).

at the risk of sounding ungrateful, though.. today was just as any other day. apart from the disastrous background, this day was unremarkable.

oh. my bday wish? to have an attitude transplant. obviously i'm in dire need of it.

the magic is missing

i miss being able to go out to shop. i mean, REALLY shop. yeah, i know i'm always in megamall. twice a week.. every week.. for the past decade or so. but my "shopping" escapades there are.. well.. i don't consider them actual shopping experiences.

i've always wanted to go to greenhills. to browse clothes.. to look for bargains.. update my wardrobe.. or just plain walk around.

i know what they all say. count your blessings. be grateful for the little things. yeah. i do. i am.

but the magic is missing. i wish i could get it back. i just don't know how :(

playing your cards right

today is.. uhmm.. well, it's too eventful for me to write down a long post :p suffice it to say that i'm glad things turned out a whole lot better than i expected :)

anyway, today i learned that (1) there are moments when it's better to not lay down all your cards on the table; but (2) sometimes it pays to take a gamble :p

i'm uber-tired and feeling woozy with a splitting headache; but today i don't mind. and i don't care.

i still don't like the birth month; but as of now, i find i can more than tolerate it :)

i wonder if i ought to continue being poker-faced..

wake me up...

there are many reasons why i hate september, and here are a few:

1. it signals in the christmas season. and we all know how i HATE that time of the year.

2. it's the month where i (officially) turn a year older. who the hell wants to get older?!

3. it's usually gloomy. oh. and there are no holidays in september.

so i reserved this special rant for today - the first day of september 2009. i thought that as years went by i'd get over my feeling of unease during my birth month. tsk. guess i was wrong. again.

anyway, i was riding the mrt late this afternoon when some stray thoughts wandered into my mind again. i guess i still have a semi-hangover from yesterday's movie. or maybe i'm really just in a morose mood. i dunno. but this supposedly inspirational quote popped into my head: today is a gift. that is why they call it the present. hahahahahaha. yeah right.

i rarely consider any day a gift. especially the present (or whenever it is that my physical body is stuck in). after all, my mind rarely stays in the now. it's either i'm wishing i could go back in time to undo all my stupid mistakes.. or else relive happier times that are no longer possible to bring back. or i'd be looking to the future - extremely paranoid or worried. i am almost never totally here 'coz my mind's always wandering in some different time zone; and i can't catch up.

but sometimes.. a few precious sometimes.. i manage to stay here. now. all too quickly, though.. time's up. and i'm back to my wandering ways.. *sigh*

oh well. still. thanks. i think.

out of time

i "made the most" out of the holiday by doing something i haven't done in a long while. yup. i watched the time traveler's wife this afternoon at gateway mall (with the folks and wcd, hehe). it was.. hmm.. well, i wouldn't say spectacular, because naturally the book is always loads better than the movie version; but it was.. worth watching :)

i'm not a fan of romance/drama, but i really, really loved this story because of its plot. obviously it's about time travel.. but i just loved the way the author wrote it. the narrative is nonlinear and linear at the same time (depends on whose perspective, i suppose). bottom line: the novel is a semi-traditional love story written in a "weird" way. and we all know how i'm instantly drawn to weird stuff.. hehehe.

on a (not so) related note.. there are moments when i feel like i am a chrono-impaired person too. oh, you know.. as if i am not so fully in the present.. or i am not my own age. i don't think i travel through time.. but then again.. who knows?! maybe i do, but i just haven't met myself yet.

then again.. maybe i've met me but i've just been too ashamed of myself to say hello, hahahaha.