rat race

sometimes i feel life is one huge rat race - running from one place to another, trying to get ahead of everybody (or at the very least, trying to keep up with everyone else), without really anywhere to go.

the days just zip by with blinding speed. everything's a blur. days come and go and not only can you not stop to smell the roses; you can't even sit still for a couple of minutes, nor can you breathe deeply enough to actually LIVE.

what purpose is there to life anyway? you study from childhood 'til you graduate from high school and college. you probably take up a graduate course then move on to post-grad studies. you work. and work. and work. you earn. or at least you try to. you try to save money to buy a house (if that's even possible here in this country). you get married. have kids. you slave a couple more years to get them through elementary, high school and college. they grow up. they leave you. you plod along miserably until you die.

is that all there is to it? *sigh* i really don't think so. and i should certainly hope not. but right now, i think i need a little more help in setting my focus aright...

Leonardo's Mirror

There's this book I found at PowerBooks (Greenbelt Branch) and it's really good. It's not a novel nor is it a book of short stories. It's a book of puzzles and its title is LEONARDO'S MIRROR & OTHER PUZZLES.

The book contains puzzles that would pique the interest of any math enthusiast. It takes up different fields of math - from Number theory to Graph theory, Calculus and Geometry. Sounds intimidating? Well, not really. It's an easy read, actually... and the explanations of concepts are very down to earth.

A must-read for everyone - especially math majors and those who enjoy a good puzzle.

hitchhiker "trilogy"

Probably the weirdest, wackiest, most creatively original and totally insane books i've ever read are Douglas Adams' Hitchhiker's Trilogy (which isn't really a trilogy, because it is composed of at least five books).

The books in his "trilogy" - The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, The Restaurant at the End of the Universe, Life, the Universe & Everything, So Long and Thanks for the Fish and Mostly Harmless - are about earthman Arthur Dent's space adventures with his pals Ford Prefect, Zaphod Beeblebrox and Tricia Macmillan. Totally hilario us and utterly impossible, you'll really have a crazy time reading through these books.

I highly recommend these books to anyone who's looking for a light read... and who's not afraid to let their imagination go wild. =)

HOT HOT HOT DAY

today's heat is intense. too intense. i feel like i'm going to either melt or burn up. it's the kind of day that makes you want to do absolutely nothing at all. there's no place to hide in this heat!!! aaaaauuuuuugggggghhhhhhh!!!!!!!

what i'm craving for right now is ICE CREAM!!!! wish i had a bowlful of cold, creamy, refreshing frozen ice cream. and i'll eat it in an air-conditioned room hahahahaha. *sigh* just wishful thinking i guess...

special days

today is a special day. or at least it's supposed to be. but it doesn't feel special. it's an ordinary day. much like any other. or maybe that's what i tell myself to stop hurting.

it's kinda stupid how special occasions lead people to expect special things to happen. after all, those are just dates on a calendar. same as all the other 364 (or 365) days. but it doesn't work that way. not for me. no matter how many times i say i'll never expect... i'll never ask for anything every 26th of the month... deep inside, i still do.

oh well. just as all other things do... this too shall pass...

shadows

there's a bucket with my teardrop swimming inside
it contains all the feelings i've chosen to hide -
anger, hurt, disappointment, fear,
impatience and longing to have you near

there's a song playing over and over in my mind
bringing back mem'ries i've tried to leave behind
i don't want to remember, i don't want to recall
i don't want to have to think of you at all

there's nothing but shadows where you used to be
loneliness and sorrow are what's left with me
my hands lay before me... the ones you used to hold
there's nothing there now
all is empty
and cold

our upcoming album

for months now, our church choir has been recording one song every week. we have practice twice a week, serve at the prayer meeting every wednesday and sing during sunday mass among other things. i don't recall ever being any busier. i don't recall ever being more physically exhausted.

but i suppose it is worth it. we're very nearly done with our recording project - only one more song to go!!! :) soon we'll be able to release our CD. i'm actually quite proud of it - not just because we sound nice... but because i know that a lot of time, effort, love and tears were poured out in making it. :) that's why i really am glad our recording will be over soon... so i can all encourage friends to grab a copy and listen to inspiring Christian music and support our project as well :)

oh... and it doesn't hurt to once again be able to sleep before 1am either, hehe.